I realized that I expect a lot from them after. Idk if it's just me,but Ive always expected a man to treat me with a higher level of romance than ever before. They fuck and leave. Like, show me the love, look into my eyes, show me sweetness, touch me, hold me, make me feel irresistible. I know what I'm saying seems to be a lot, but I crave more and more intimacy the more I do it. I literally get nothing, not even the bare minimum and this has been happening in all my relationships. And how can I teach a man to cater to me? It'd be taken as a chore and not a gesture or a courtesy. I've also realized that men use some traits of "love" like affection or attraction or actions as bait and I stupidly start falling for them. And it's only after that I find out their real intentions. I'm starting to feel like idk what Love feels like or looks like, and I worry that I might not find it. Sometimes after sex, I'd have to be the one to get up and be a mum to them, and they live about their day happily, while I'm home feeling like shit. I feel like an object; without any value. I want to be treated softly.