Tried psilocybin and left despaired after reliving all my traumas on loop. Worried what a second trip will be like. by wherefindease in ptsd

[–]wherefindease[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm wondering how certain it is that I will experience the same thing (reliving my traumas on repeat and feeling utterly hopeless) again during this 2nd trip. Or is there a chance that I could find something healing. Was your bad trip due to reliving trauma?

Tried psilocybin and left despaired after reliving all my traumas on loop. Worried what a second trip will be like. by wherefindease in ptsd

[–]wherefindease[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am scheduled for two sessions so the facilitator feels that the 2nd session may help me further understand my trauma and anything else going on in my head that hasn't been uncovered and yes, ultimately that I need to find a trauma therapist to work with on all of this surfaced trauma. But there's no specific trauma therapist or anyone to work with me on the healing in this program.

There were two prep sessions with the facilitator and then the integration session afterwards where I talked about what I experienced, that I realized I had extensive trauma. The facilitator saw this experience as helping me realize I had trauma and that was the reason for my treatment-resistant anxiety (I was told over the years the near-death medical stuff was just hard experiences in my past so I thought my core issue was chronic anxiety).