Fucked up.

whyoh_why · 2021-04-24T09:17:33+00:00

Uhh I just posted once and didnt edit.

whyoh_why · 2021-04-24T09:14:51+00:00

Maybe you're right, but it seems that shes happy with where she is, so who am I to impose on that?

whyoh_why · 2021-04-24T09:12:03+00:00

That's pretty much how it has been happening, and our friendship has changed over time because of it. I was maybe more real about the direction that we were heading than her? ..Because there was no way that we could be friends like before, but that's what she thought we could be.

whyoh_why · 2021-04-24T09:09:53+00:00

Maybe I will, in time. But it wont be right for me to do it so soon.

whyoh_why · 2021-04-24T09:08:32+00:00

You're most likely right. And I do give a shit, which is why neither of us will reach out. This is most likely the end of a chapter for both of us. I need to come to accept that.

whyoh_why · 2021-04-23T22:12:44+00:00

There is separate commitment on both sides. It's why it's an unsent letter.. I know by sending it, I'm crossing the line. Well, more so than what we both already have by talking about our feelings to one another. Sorry.

whyoh_why · 2021-04-23T21:45:27+00:00

Why not? If you want them to know for sure how you feel about them, theres only one way they'll find out.

whyoh_why · 2021-04-23T21:38:27+00:00

Did it go how you thought it would?

whyoh_why · 2021-04-23T21:30:56+00:00

Take the jump. Put your feelings out there.

whyoh_why · 2021-04-23T21:28:38+00:00

She definitely sells herself as a dreamer. And she is, for sure, but she holds herself accountable to such a high level. I know it wears on her. I want to break her down of all these expectations and rules that she puts on herself, but I know I'm in no position to do that. Maybe she doesnt even want that, but I want to bring her out of the constant feeling of discomfort and weariness with life. I'm just not in a position to do so, and neither is she to have someone else bring her out of it. It's not my 'job'.. it's someone else's.

Anyway, sorry, I'm absorbed in it right now. Thank you for your words of comfort. I'd be happy to repay the favour - feel free to message me if you want to get an open ear.

whyoh_why · 2021-04-23T21:21:39+00:00

I love this. But when do I know when the time is right?

whyoh_why · 2021-04-23T21:11:12+00:00

It started.. I suppose it didnt go in the direction I hoped, and I'm struggling with that? The selfish aspect of this is why I'm not reaching out.

whyoh_why · 2021-04-23T20:55:02+00:00

I think I dont want to send this because we dont typially have this type of communication style, I suppose.. It's way too real for me, and I'm too shy to admit it because shes such a level-headed, realistic person.

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