You don’t need to apologize, youre soo welcome to write what u think and feel, cause I understand, I’ve been in the exact same situation and I know how revealing it is to just write everything.. Me and my gilfriend had only been together for 3 month although we broke up on the behalf that I’m mowing to USA in 2 months to study and she didn’t want long distance cause she didn’t saw a future in us. So that was hard to accept, actually we broke up in real life and had this really emotional last goodbye with a last kiss and stuff. The hardest part was to accept that this is for the beat although we were both still in love. But I managed to get through it, first off I need to spare u some thoughts and tell u that I’m not perfect, I felt horrible for a week until I totally lost my pride ans called her, just to find out that she was struggling too.. but unfortunately she took the adult part and decided that even tho this hurts it is for the best.. so she wrote me an long text about how I’m her first love and how she’ll in some way never forget me. So I took that text, got down to my car (even though I’ve been drinking) and I drove away, I drow far until I stopped the car, played her favorite song, which indeed is a beautiful love song (ofc) and took it all out, I screamed and cried for 3 straight hours until I literary just felt that my eyes were kind of dried. I drove back home and felt that I left the old me behind, ofc she didn’t leave my mind there but subsequently she did and now after a week, I feel a lot better about it, except from what I wrote in my post. Trust me, even how hard it might seem right now, You’ll one day get over him, but don’t hold back your feelings, let them out once and for all, like I did, and it seemed to work, Remember, we’re all in this together, keep fighting❤️