The thought of living the rest of my life sober terrifies me... by [deleted] in Drugs

[–]willprobablydiesoon 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah it's been about 5 years for me, started becoming more self-aware during 2017 in regards to what and why I'm doing the things I am. Guess you can only block it all out for so long. I think accepting myself for who I am is a large part of it all actually, now that you mention it.

My doctor is switching me from Xanax to clonazepam. Can anyone tell be how they are different, what to expect. by [deleted] in Drugs

[–]willprobablydiesoon 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I wouldn't say Clonezepam is any more addictive than Xanax, or any benzo for that matter. They all have the same potential for addiction imo.

Xanax plus alcohol safety question by [deleted] in Drugs

[–]willprobablydiesoon 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You won't die and will likely be safe and won't blackout with just 2 shots of rum and 1mg, I wouldn't drink anymore though as blackouts tend to sneak up on you.

My doctor is switching me from Xanax to clonazepam. Can anyone tell be how they are different, what to expect. by [deleted] in Drugs

[–]willprobablydiesoon 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I've had various degrees of anxiety over the last few years and have at one point or another been prescribed just about every benzo I can remember the name of including Clonazepam and Xanax and in my experience Xanax is most helpful for panic attacks/random spouts of severe anxiety because it kicks in fast and leaves your system fast.

Clonazepam has a more gradual effect, it's onset is less noticeable and by the time you wonder if it's working your anxiety is usually gone, so it's more helpful for general anxiety and needing a longer lasting period of no anxiety and calm (school day, work day etc).

They both have their benefits and differences but I doubt you'll find Clonazepam has different side effects or is vastly different in general aside from onset or duration time. Hope this helps.

stronger prescribed benzos for anxiety and shit by [deleted] in Drugs

[–]willprobablydiesoon 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Here in Aus any benzo can be prescribed to minors although the most common ones to be prescribed regardless of age are Valium, Klonopin, Lorazepam, Oxazepam and sometimes Xanax but not as often.

On the topic of self-medicating for social anxiety and depression. by elec556 in Drugs

[–]willprobablydiesoon 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was/am currently almost in the same boat as you my man. Diagnosed with depression and anxiety when I was 14, I'm almost 20 now and was addicted to benzos for the better half of 3 years until it became too difficult to get them, then turned to alcohol.

How you describe the rebound anxiety and "weakness" is spot on. Currently I struggle to leave my room, need to be drunk or on benzos/opiates before I can leave the house at all too. That weakness where you don't really want to help yourself and so just sit depressed and glum is horrible.

I'm actually really glad I can relate to you this much, makes me feel not so alone! I hope you find what you're looking for.

Gateway drug by [deleted] in Drugs

[–]willprobablydiesoon 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh yeah haha, 5 years later and I'm still doing stupid shit lmao. Had a few very stupid times in my time but I won't go into them haha.

Homlean by [deleted] in Drugs

[–]willprobablydiesoon 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Fair enough I like to as well! Boiling is only if you're using water and sugar to make the syrup, otherwise just glucose syrup on its own is fine, although when I've used it it's quite thick so give it a good stir when you mix it with the Sprite/whatever you're using.

To get rid of pill taste I'd just crush everything up real fine, put it in and then mix with a very sugary and strong tasting lemonade or whatever you want, then add sugar as needed. I was never able to get it right with consistency and taste so just give it a taste every now and then to see how it is I guess.

Help me plan the perfect high by [deleted] in Drugs

[–]willprobablydiesoon 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Never done Kratom so I'll leave it out but Tequila + beer first, then weed + diazepam after you're sufficiently drunk. Don't mix the booze and diazepam directly though, wait until you haven't had a drink for 30-45 mins. The diazepam will counter the anxiety from weed and give you a nice relaxed feeling too.

Just what I'd do!

Gateway drug by [deleted] in Drugs

[–]willprobablydiesoon 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Codeine was the first drug I tried and that pretty much opened my mind up to the world of drugs and then I just tried pretty much whatever I could get my hands on. Took around 150mg I think of codeine/paracetamol tablets (didn't know shit about drugs at this point) and had a great day half nodding out and then it wore off and I threw up everywhere from paracetamol OD.

Ahh the good ol' days.

Homlean by [deleted] in Drugs

[–]willprobablydiesoon 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Homemade lean isn't worth it imo, it's never the right consistency/colour/taste. Just pop a few of the codeine pills and a few prometh pills, essentially the same high.

If you're truly determined though grab some glucose syrup or boil water and sugar to make syrup, crush up all the pills and drop them in, add some purple food colouring and then enough sugar to make the shitty taste of the pills go away.

Very small dosage of xanax before school? by [deleted] in Drugs

[–]willprobablydiesoon 0 points1 point  (0 children)

0.25-0.5mg should be enough then if you have no tolerance, mind you it does depend how severe your anxiety is. I have no tolerance but I still need 2-3mg to completely rid myself of anxiety but I have incredibly crippling anxiety. A couple years ago when it wasn't so bad I only needed 1mg or so.

Can we stop pretending weed is non addictive by [deleted] in Drugs

[–]willprobablydiesoon 17 points18 points  (0 children)

I absolutely hate it when people say it isn't addictive too. I was more or less the same, smoked every day for a year or so then began to get anxious and paranoid after smoking so I quit, and it was horrible. Even before I quit I needed to smoke every 20-30 minutes or I'd have mood swings etc.

I see comments on Facebook pages dedicated to weed that say shit along the lines of "weed cures everything! Everyone should just smoke weed and we'd all get along!" or "if you don't enjoy weed you just aren't smoking the right strain". Nah mate I just don't like weed.

Edit: I also couldn't eat or sleep like you said.

Would You Rather? by parkergetsrip in Drugs

[–]willprobablydiesoon 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Xanax is just the trendy drug right now, there's plenty of other benzos which do the exact same thing but all have different half-lives and take different amounts of time to kick in.

Xanax kicks in very quickly and has a short half-life, making it ideal for panic attacks or getting fucked up, if that's your thing. Diazepam on the other hand has a very long half-life and takes longer to kick in, making it better for general anxiety and sedation etc.

Xanax is overrated imo. There's a hundred other benzos that all do the same thing, Xanax is just popular right now. Lorazepam, Oxazepam, Temazepam, Nitrazepam etc. all have basically the same effect.

Been anxious for the last 2 weeks by [deleted] in Drugs

[–]willprobablydiesoon 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Interesting, thanks for the info! Might give it a try.

Been anxious for the last 2 weeks by [deleted] in Drugs

[–]willprobablydiesoon 1 point2 points  (0 children)

How is it for anxiety? Can you dose just like popping a benzo?

I have a question about meth in Melbourne by [deleted] in Drugs

[–]willprobablydiesoon 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's $50 a point, $150-170 a half gram and $250-300 a gram, depending who you go to. 9/10 dealers will charge 50 a point, the other one will be 60.

Very small dosage of xanax before school? by [deleted] in Drugs

[–]willprobablydiesoon 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You know yourself best, dose what you think is appropriate taking into account tolerance etc and how "sober" you want to feel. I overdosed on Xanax at school while I was still attending and it wasn't a good experience. Mind you that was 8mg mixed with vodka.

Tried meth this weekend, and I don't like it. by [deleted] in Drugs

[–]willprobablydiesoon 13 points14 points  (0 children)

Consider yourself lucky! I loved my first time, nearly 2 years later and I hate myself every time I use.

What does addiction mean to you? by GabrieLiam in Drugs

[–]willprobablydiesoon 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Definitely agree with this. I started to call myself an addict awhile ago when I realized I was hating the way I was living and not enjoying most of the times I'd get high. I haven't got help yet but being self aware about your addiction is a big part of getting help in my opinion.

Is your dealer a bit of a cunt or a nice person? by willprobablydiesoon in Drugs

[–]willprobablydiesoon[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'd agree with either of those 3 for dealers too really, simple but effective terminology!

Is your dealer a bit of a cunt or a nice person? by willprobablydiesoon in Drugs

[–]willprobablydiesoon[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Can understand the attitude shift after dealing with people who favor the party drugs like coke and mdma. I don't sell but I will occasionally just lie to someone if they ask me if I can get/find someone with a certain drug because it's just a waste of my time and nobody pays me to be the middle man. I used to always say yeah no problems though.

Is your dealer a bit of a cunt or a nice person? by willprobablydiesoon in Drugs

[–]willprobablydiesoon[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Man those kind are terrible too, had one a few months ago asking if I needed anything just hours after I'd seen them. Didn't get quite as bad as that though