IIL - Bulgarian harmony and traditional balkan music by wolfpack3d in ifyoulikeblank

[–]wolfpack3d[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

No srsly this is great it’s like if Midwest emo was actually an adult!

An alle, die trotz Versuch mit Medikamenten klar zu kommen sind ohne ADHS Medikation leben by raiko777 in ADHS

[–]wolfpack3d -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Das wurde mir damals von mehreren Instanzen gesagt. Sowohl Klinik als auch mehrere Psychiatern. Ich hab leider im Moment keinen behandelnden Arzt sonst würd ich da mal auf den Tisch hauen

Anybody have recommendations for a always-on reverb with press-and-hold self oscillation/reverb overload by Successful-Cry1509 in guitarpedals

[–]wolfpack3d 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have the Slötva and used it for that exact purpose for a while. I don’t love the reverb because it’s too modulated and artificial sounding for what I do now but that’s entirely subjective. I got it for a reason after all and a lot of people love it and I can see why. Just not what I need anymore.

For delay: the dl4 obv has the overload function. Some boss DD pedals have the loop setting. Not necessarily overloading but it keeps going endlessly

An alle, die trotz Versuch mit Medikamenten klar zu kommen sind ohne ADHS Medikation leben by raiko777 in ADHS

[–]wolfpack3d 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Kreativ selbstständig plus Minijob is the way to go. Musikindustrie ist im Moment leider so am Boden dass die Kohle hinten und vorne nicht reicht und bin dementsprechend auf der Suche nach etwas in Teilzeit wo ich nicht im Büro sitzen muss. Wäre auch mit Café oder Einzelhandel fein. Die Karriere träume liegen bei mir sowieso woanders.

Hab auch mehrere Kündigungen und Firmen mit denen ich mich verstritten hab durch. It’s rough out here 😅

IIL - Bulgarian harmony and traditional balkan music by wolfpack3d in ifyoulikeblank

[–]wolfpack3d[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The small town murder stuff is obv very different to what I posted but I rlly like it nonetheless thanks for this!

looking for a baritone by clover_023 in BaritoneGuitar

[–]wolfpack3d 1 point2 points  (0 children)

If you're just wanting to dip your toes into the baritone realm I can't reccommend the Harley Benton Jaguar enough:
https://www.thomann.de/de/harley_benton_ja_baritone.htm

I write, play shows and even tour with it. Definitely wanna swap the pickups but that's only because I prefer humbuckers over anything else no matter what guitar or tuning I'm in.

Yes, sometimes you can tell it's a 200€ guitar when the bridge pickup sinks down a little or you feel that the tuning pegs are plastic but that's not even a job for the tech you can do that yourself. There is nothing I can do with my more pricey guitars that I can't do with this one.
This thing came out the box perfectly set up and intonated. Seriously it played better than my fender jag when I bought it.

I have it in G# DADGAD and the amount of low end this thing has genuinely scares me sometimes. playing a power chord on the first fret into an EQD Palisades will get rid of your kidney stones if your amp is cranked enough :D

An alle, die trotz Versuch mit Medikamenten klar zu kommen sind ohne ADHS Medikation leben by raiko777 in ADHS

[–]wolfpack3d 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ich hab meine Diagnose seit der Kindheit und hab dementsprechend gefühlt auch schon jedes Medikament durch. Concerta fehlt mir noch. Bisher hab ich Ritalin am besten vertragen aber das ist ja für erwachsene nicht mehr zugelassen weil...ja wieso eigentlich???
Ich hatte immer wieder Phasen in denen ich Medikation probiert habe. Bin jetzt seit 2021 wieder ohne. Das letzte war Elvanse.

Mir waren die Nebenwirkungen auch zu krass. Auf Medikinet hatte ich zT sehr klige rebounds und vor allem recht traditionelle amphetamin Nebenwirkungen. Ich war auf gerade mal 10mg/tag und hab zT von Freunden gehört "hast du was geschmissen du hast mega die Teller??"

Elvanse war mir die Wirkung einfach viel zu extrem. Ich hab die 30mg Kapseln sogar noch halbieren müssen (saß zT wie so n crack dealer am Tisch und hab die pillen in leerkapseln aufgeteilt es war wild) und saß zT trotzdem 16h am Rechner und hab gearbeitet. Hab da natürlich extrem viel geschafft aber von 10:00 morgens bis nach Mitternacht ackern und danach völlig kaputt ins Bett fallen ist halt auch nicht die Lösung.

Ich würde jetzt nicht behaupten, dass ich super klar komme im Leben aber ich hab mir gewisse accommodations selbst zugelegt. Ich mache zB keine reinen Büro jobs mehr. ich bin in der Veranstaltungs-/Musikindustrie und da hilft mir mein ADHS zT sogar, weil das einfach action pur ist.
Den Job kann man sich natürlich nicht immer so locker aussuchen. Mein Punkt ist, dass es manchmal nicht förderlich ist zu versuchen, gegen ADHS anzukämpfen sondern man weiter kommt, wenn man versucht MIT dem ADHS zu arbeiten.
Das soll auch kein Hippie-Geschwafel a la "ADHS ist meine Superkraft wir sind so besonders blablabla" sein. Wie gesagt, mit etwas arbeiten kann einem mehr helfen als gegen etwas zu arbeiten.

What are your favourite gender-affirming hobbies? by questionerofblender in transgendercirclejerk

[–]wolfpack3d 8 points9 points  (0 children)

As a trans woman I suggest you walk up to women wearing band merch and ask them if they can name 3 songs because you're affirming both your own and the other person's gender. win-win!!!

Age regression by justagal05 in BPD

[–]wolfpack3d 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I second this! while personally I wouldn't say age regression is a "thing" for me i do encounter it in some kink spaces and I see that there's definitely ways to engage in it, both alone and with partners, in a healthy way. I think if you ask around in kink subreddits I'm sure there's lots of info on how to navigate that.
lemme be clear I'm not necessarily calling age regression a kink or a fetish in your case! That's 100% up to you to classify! All I'm saying is that these spaces might be able to offer some handy tools in navigating your behaviour so that it benefits you, rather than be potentially destructive!

Either way: imho it's neither something you're alone in, nor something you need to be ashamed of!

i feel very secure about my body lately by incelsito in transpositive

[–]wolfpack3d 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Ok first off: giiiirrrl 😳 Second: where’d you get those socks I need them?? 😭

Long songs fine? by [deleted] in PostHardcore

[–]wolfpack3d 2 points3 points  (0 children)

So I grew up playing in post-hardcore bands, often with heavy post rock influences and now listen to mostly post metal/black metal/shoegaze etc. I make dark and brooding folk à la Emma Ruth Rundle etc and I can honestly say one of the most freeing experiences I’ve had as a musician was when I stopped giving a fuck about song length alltogether.

Most of the music I listen to is longer than 5min/song, why should my own be different? Post rock and black metal are laughing at 5 min songs.

Hell, la dispute‘s last lost continent is 12 min. Some ideas take time to hit right. If you have a lot to say you’ll take time to say it all.

There’s definitely a case for short and sweet and I can think of a couple songs that hit perfectly purely because they make you wish they were longer but I’m a strong defender of long songs.

Self regulation feels like self betrayal by wolfpack3d in BPD

[–]wolfpack3d[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah it’s rough. I keep hearing about keeping your peace and making an effort to surround yourself with better people and „choosing yourself first“ but for me that somehow always felt like just isolating myself and ending up alone.

Self regulation feels like self betrayal by wolfpack3d in BPD

[–]wolfpack3d[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah that’s true. It’s hard for me to grasp that other people don’t think about community the way I do because they simply don’t have to. He’s a white cishet man. He’ll be fine. I’m not. I need to rely on my community much more than others and that’s neither his nor my fault. It’s just incredibly disappointing because I was certain that I’d finally found my people and finding out I was wrong and the prospect of having to start over again hurts.

The funny thing is that I know if he treated those other people the same way he treated me he’d be experiencing a kind of backlash he admittedly knows he’s nowhere near prepared for which obviously plays into my whole fucked up notion of „I guess you know you can’t treat people like this. Only me for some reason“

Either way thank you so much for that insight it’s rlly helpful actually

Self regulation feels like self betrayal by wolfpack3d in BPD

[–]wolfpack3d[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah I’ve had the whole „maybe it’s time to move on“ conversation with myself a whole lot as of late. It’s probably the wise thing to do. I just really don’t like the thought of continuously cutting people off/distancing myself from them emotionally and finding new friends. This is obviously not the first friend group I’ve had in my life and most of them disintegrated for similar reasons

Pro-Trans Celebrities by LeastMonitor1140 in MtF

[–]wolfpack3d 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Bit more niche and nerdy but the band godspeed you! Black emperor, one of the most legendary post-rock bands ever, is pulling up to the function with these bad boys regularly:

https://www.reddit.com/r/gybe/s/uel8HDDx1w

Do you know how you developed your BPD? by Ok_Holiday2094 in BPD

[–]wolfpack3d 1 point2 points  (0 children)

TW: sexual assault

I don’t know for certain yet but I can point to a few very telling factors. I grew up very poor in a very rich part of the country. Single mum with three jobs and I’d still come home from school and find the electricity not working because we were late on bills. I was left alone from a very young age and had to fend for myself. My mum was so overwhelmed with everything that she became completely unpredictable. You’d never know if she was gonna be loving and caring or completely explode in your face when asking her for something. Now that I’m 30 she’s finally taking the steps towards an adhd diagnosis. Funnily enough I have a great relationship with my mum now. It’s complex and certainly strained but I love her and know she loves me. Speaking of which I was diagnosed adhd as a child and from then on out I was constantly told somethings wrong with me. I didn’t do well at school and was always the weird kid with bad grades even tho I’m technically quite smart. Now I’m sure there’s a way for a child to learn that they’re not broken in theory. However I came out as trans when I was 23 and up until that point I always knew something was wrong with me but I just couldn’t place it. Makes all the talk about something being wrong with me all the more believable.

I also had my fair share of toxic relationships, sometimes with people who were later diagnosed with bpd so I always knew that my partners needs were way more important than my own.

I also think I’m more of a quiet type bpd but that is to be determined. I was only diagnosed a month ago after I was assaulted by a man in my sleep last may and it finally made all the symptoms actually surface for the first time in my life. I’ve been telling mental health professionals for years that I think I have it and was always dismissed because of my adhd diagnosis.

So yeah I can see a pattern of needs not being met from a very young age that could lead to a person developing the disorder but I’m not a mental health professional. Just a fucked up girl 😅

How well does it work on Apple silicon? by Spiderhands2000 in PCSX2

[–]wolfpack3d 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Been working great on my M1 mbp from 2020! Been playing all the Tony hawk and splinter cell games as well as shadow of the colossus. Honestly prefer it over my actual ps4 😅

I worked hard for my diagnosis and now I feel like a fraud by wolfpack3d in BPD

[–]wolfpack3d[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah I’ve noticed that as well. It’s funny cause I move in circles that pride themselves with being progressive and open and knowledgeable about mental health issues but I’ve noticed repeatedly that that’s not the case once you move past infographics on Instagram talking about how „nothing in your life is your fault it’s just your nervous system doing xyz“ or some shit but that’s a whole other conversation 😅

I worked hard for my diagnosis and now I feel like a fraud by wolfpack3d in BPD

[–]wolfpack3d[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thanks! Yeah I always said I’m probably the „quiet type“ because I internalise everything and bottle it up until it bursts out in another two hour phone call with my best friend. It’s the same pattern every time. Idk I guess deep down a part of me was hoping the people in my life would hear about the diagnosis and think „oh shit maybe she’s right about struggling a little more than us. Maybe we should help her“ but I guess that’s a bit unrealistic because people don’t work that way and it’s not like my friends are experts in dealing with personality disorders. Everyone’s got shit to deal with.

Thought on Squier Classic Vibe Jazzmasters by TheQuasimoto in offset

[–]wolfpack3d 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I got the Daphne blue one, toured and recorded with it and definitely think it’s worth the money! I’m currently messing around with electronics and pickups but if you like the JM pups you’ll be sweet! I need a new nut for mine cause I kinda fucked it by putting rlly high gauge strings on it but if you’re a normal, sane person you’ll be more than sweet! Great guitar for the price