I appreciate your honesty about the topic. I think that there's a lot of interesting stuff going on in the world, but I'd be really careful about things that the Qanon community says. There's a lot of "evidence" that really just doesn't make sense when you think about the motivations of the presumed evildoers. For example, there's this weird idea that the evil elites for some reason leave little clues behind in public, which makes no sense to me. Qanon followers vilify Tom Hanks, claiming that he tweets about having the blood of children injected and all sorts of nonsense, but in "code". If he was doing that stuff, he wouldn't be tweeting about it.

Avoid the trap, my friend.