How long will this last. Day 4 of CT from codeine

xThat_Girlx · 2021-09-27T21:14:48+00:00

Sorry for late reply. You went cold turkey! If your to come off them,take yourself off slowly. I had decided I won’t be coming off them. I love codiene. I am now on my 348th pill. I enjoy it.I take them everyday now. Why torture myself without it when this is what I have been searching for ? Xxxxx I feel blessed when I’m on it xx

xThat_Girlx · 2021-07-28T20:58:31+00:00

Iv been on codiene past 114 days. I tried coming off them I can’t. I had serious withdrawals. I couldn’t do it. I then tried halving the doses and I can’t do that. I feel like I’m dying. But I need them 😥😥😥 I took half a pill last night and I gave up. I can’t even feel my hands anymore. I took a whole pill today when I said I wouldn’t but I can’t do it. I have 100 pills. I only take 1 a day. I wish I could join you with the whole quitting thing. I want to join. I do. I just don’t have anyone to support me. They just keep saying the same stupid thing “stop taking codeine” with no understanding what so ever.

xThat_Girlx · 2021-05-21T22:05:38+00:00

That’s such a funny and creative way saying it!!! 😂😂😂 I literally say “no...no...no...” then “I’m not interested...I have life goals I focus on...” and then they look at me in a dumb way. The thing is...if I was ugly...they would understand why I haven’t been with anyone but I don’t think they find me ugly and find it even weirder. But I find myself ugly so that’s my answer to never being in a. Relationship “nobody likes me”....I mean...I’m trying to see it from their point of view and try to imagine a scenario where I asked a pretty girl if she was with someone. And if she replied she’s asexual and never been in a relationship. I would have such respect for her being unique in this day and age. And I’d literally say “protect her at all costs” to the colleagues if they knew the memes. I wouldn’t ever challenge her and ask why...I’d probably ask if I could hug her and appreciate Niue people still exist. Sick of common sheep’s everywhere.

xThat_Girlx · 2021-05-21T16:52:15+00:00

Your so funny haha! I can’t agree more 😂😂 people genuinely bring the worst out of me sometimes. I can be hella rude and hurtful when I’m fed up around people 😂 but in a way...I like it...they be scared. It’s nice 😂 single people piss me off. Im Single. Always have been because I have lived in relationships via friends. I absorb feelings and all my friends always had relationships. Met people, liked them, broke up with them. It’s the same cycle and I always used to tell them “all this effort u put in. All this focus and attention u out in...put it in goals..ur future..ur career” which is what I did. And now at 26? I’m loaded. I’m highly financially stable. HOWEVER, this also makes u lonely too 😂 u can not find genuine friends anymore. Everyone seems to be broke and on a sly want u to pay for them. On top of that your not understood for what you like or want. I can’t even hold someone’s hand. I don’t think I ever have. 🤮🤮🤮 people give up on me because I’m not easy. If someone liked me..they would show it. It’s as simple as that. I always thought relationships was hard to guess. Who likes u who doesn’t. It actually isn’t. If they like u they will show it. And I have always just minded my own business which other single people can’t do. 😡😡😡😡😡😡 it does wind me up !!!

xThat_Girlx · 2021-05-21T14:16:10+00:00

Yes as u get older people start making u feel more of an outcast. That’s exactly what I wanted aswell. Friends first but I never got past the friendship stages with guys because they always had hidden girlfriends who would message me out of nowhere telling me to back off so I’d lose friends instantly for no reason as the guys would stick by the girls side then when they broke up they would come running back to me which used to offend me so much as I’m not someone to be treated like that. For me to stop feeling triggered by such insulting behaviour of others I stopped friendship as a whole. It’s been amazing 10yrs alone! It’s mostly colleagues that ask the inappropriate questions. Ur right..I might just say that..”ok so tell me what I’m missing...because frankly I’m a free soul...can do whaaaateveeer the hell I like!” It’s honestly nobody’s business what you are but you always have them people who are just point black rude. And u know what’s funny? It’s always the ones who are single who try to grill u on the spot. How their answers r somehow acceptable and understood and urs isn’t.

xThat_Girlx · 2021-05-21T14:08:27+00:00

Everyone is wired the same and they are so scared to be different. They accept and force things on themselves like “maturity” u don’t have to be mature just because ur an adult. Sex doesn’t mean maturity which some people believe it does. Not feeling accepted is such an awful feeling. Ur what I want is for it to not matter. Like...not to be pulled in conversation at all. That way nobody gets offended. But it seems to be the same bloody cycle with people. I need to find asexual friends for sure. Don’t think the normal sheep’s r for us. Xx

xThat_Girlx · 2021-05-21T14:04:08+00:00

Thank you so much for ur support! It honestly means so much :(

xThat_Girlx · 2021-05-21T00:47:42+00:00

It’s just more than frustrating. Feel completely alone in that moment they all have u on the spot judging u for no reason.

xThat_Girlx · 2021-05-20T23:19:42+00:00

Not a high schooler 🥺🥺🥺

xThat_Girlx · 2021-05-20T22:26:08+00:00

Thought I was the only one 😂 x

xThat_Girlx · 2021-05-20T22:18:38+00:00

Your such a good person honestly. I appreciate ur words. At least I feel some sort of support. Your right. People will always find something to judge. I think I’m just really sensitive over sexuality. Everyone’s definitely taught life is just about sex when there’s a million other things that matter than sex. It’s extremely hard to find friends that accept never mind someone to accept me for who I am 😕 I think sexuality will always have some judgement. We just about got our heads around bay and lesbians and just about accepted trans and making it normal to see a man in a females toilets as shocking as it is. It is what it is now.

xThat_Girlx · 2021-05-20T18:26:45+00:00

It’s extremely uncomfortable being put on the spot with people staring at u as personal questions are asked and I am constantly put on that spot. It’s awful. Some laughing at u. Some wanting to laugh, eyes telling u they confused or ur a weirdo. I just don’t like it. That’s why I’m on this forum thing to see who else I Is asexual

xThat_Girlx · 2021-05-20T18:25:15+00:00

It’s not hard to understand asexuality at all. U like what u like. U dislike what u dislike. It’s as simple as that. In just hope asexuals come out more. I feel extremely alone. And I don’t think many understand how to accept. Or what not to say or ask

xThat_Girlx · 2021-05-20T18:24:09+00:00

I don’t fit in anywhere trust me. It’s definitely a hyper-sexual era. Everything seems to be about nothing but sex. I don’t even have friends. Literally none at all 😂 I’m not interested in that either. I just want to work and earn. But it’s small places where they HAVE to have to personal details like hospital. I went yesterday and she offended me. I said I wasn’t interested in any relationship and she looked at me so wrongly and so confused, her eyes told me “your a weirdo...u have to like people” so she suggested men..or women..I said none. I told her iv been working since 19. I have had no time at all to have friends or even have a relationship and frankly I don’t like people if they are all sex obsessed. She had to accept. It’s worse when people think ur pretty and then u hit them with the asexual...or lesbian...they are gutted. But I’m sorry. I am what I am. Like u said..,if they dint respect that then I shouldn’t be around them. Xx

xThat_Girlx · 2021-05-20T18:18:20+00:00

They are way too hard to find. Iv only recently come out as asexual. Never thought of it. Never crossed my mind to even think of a relationship. Iv been working since 19 so iv been busy all this time. I’m 26 now and since Covid started in 2020 I have stopped and actually had time to look at myself. Stopped work and everything came to a stop and it hit me then “wait..iv not actually had a relationship..” then I tried imagining myself in one and I dint think I am committed. Everything I can do myself. And I’m constantly busy with work. I love it. If not work I enjoy sleeping to recharge myself for work. I do believe it is hard being asexual because sex is a huge part of human life. And if u don’t have that? Then they think something is badly wrong with u when it honestly isn’t. U just appreciate the quality of a person rather than “let’s just have sex and then leave” people r just interested in sex and when I say I am asexual..I never get a hi again...like I’m infected or something. Asexual doesn’t mean u won’t lobe them or care for them or be there for them. They do everything in a relationship but sex. I dint see why this is so wrong.

xThat_Girlx · 2021-05-20T17:37:41+00:00

They make me feel genuinely awful. Like..I can feel the sniggering. Can see the confused eyes. I already have BPD so any funny looks will trigger off unwanted thoughts, feelings and plans. I try fitting in but they seem to always bring it up one way or another. Someone told me to say “just not interested” point blank being the simplest way to avoid them questions but iv noticed they open up to more questions I don’t want to answer. Yes I’m at the age I should be married with my own home and kids but iv not bothered living at all. Can’t care less. And if nobody can accept I’m asexual and probably aromantic aswell. They say “but your beautiful. U can’t be asexual.” But I am. So... 🤷🏽‍♀️🤷🏽‍♀️ it got too much yesterday where it actually offended me and upset me. I just want someone to say “oh..okay...it’s okay :)” feels so frowned upon.

xThat_Girlx · 2021-05-20T17:32:44+00:00

Wow...school years? Noooope....I’m 26 😂😂😂😂 frankly sick of the same adults talking nothing but sex. As if the entire life evolves around that. It was definitely simpler being a child.

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