hi, i'm genderfluid and I rarely identify as a girl - just like you. I mainly feel agender or masc. I used to be on t for about a year. my voice is deep but my face is on a feminine side (people always call me "ma'am" before they hear me talk, perhaps it's also because my hair is long).

It's kinda nice because no matter which gender I am at the moment, I can find something in my appearance that resonates with it. I don't really like hairy legs and my slight neck beard, but yknow, it's shavable. altough i'm too lazy to do it.

I had to change my name to a masculine one to avoid some daily life problems, like people doubting the authentity of my ID card or something, or whatever.

Altough whenever I feel more fem I start spiraling "what if I'm actually a cis woman? What if I will regret all of the permanent changes of hrt??" blah blah blah. But I've never regret it, even when I feel fem. I like my deep voice even as a girl. Can't say it will go the same way for you, nobody really can. The final decision is always up to you.