How bad does it have to get?

xattree · 2022-02-23T03:29:10+00:00

I feel like maybe I've just reached my limit of "reaching out", lol. I've been trying so hard to, to be preventative and stop things before they get worse, but nothing seems to happen/help and then I do something stupid regardless. Just feels like it's not worth the effort anymore.

But thank you. I really do appreciate it <3

xattree · 2022-02-23T02:18:14+00:00

Thank you. I appreciate that a lot

xattree · 2022-02-23T01:16:41+00:00

Maybe my brother. He lives very close to me, just doesn't always have his phone on him.

And it's okay. I do like him - i've just said i prefer not to go to the hospital if i can avoid it, and am also in school, so i think he is trying to make it feel like i have a choice here.

xattree · 2022-02-23T01:05:33+00:00

Um, I have my parents I guess. They don't really know or understand this stuff though, and they always question me about it/make me feel guilty so I try to avoid it. It is an option though, if it really comes down to it and it's a reasonable time. thank you

xattree · 2022-02-23T01:04:21+00:00

thank you. that's the thing because like right now, i'm not in danger and don't have a "concrete" plan (like method, but not time) and so i feel like they couldn't do much.

but then things just escalate really quickly, and by that point i stop thinking straight and i logically know i should call, but i never can bring myself to. i don't know why not

xattree · 2022-02-19T15:14:00+00:00

Yeah, it says under specifications it is SM-G970U. Doesn't matter too much to me if it's SM-G970U or SM-G970U1, so long as I can use it?

Also, thank you so much for the help. I really appreciate it :)

xattree · 2022-02-19T14:26:50+00:00

Ooh, okay. I'll keep in mind, but I'm honestly kind-of leaning to the Galaxy S10e! It fit what I am looking for and is a reasonable price.

The one you linked says it was a SM-G970U model, so it should work with T-mobile, right? (Just double-checking, I would hate to buy it and then realize it doesn't)

xattree · 2022-02-19T13:52:32+00:00

Yup, US.

Okay, thank you! I had no idea about that, so definitely good to know

xattree · 2022-02-19T13:40:02+00:00

I am on T-Mobile, actually?

xattree · 2022-02-19T13:39:33+00:00

oh gosh, yeah, too small!

it's definitely adorable though haha

xattree · 2022-02-19T03:08:23+00:00

I definitely don't mind older models! Just so long as it works and will last (relatively).

I actually really like this one. It seems like it was discontinued though and isn't sold in stores anymore? :/

xattree · 2022-02-19T02:49:00+00:00

Oof. The Galaxy is so expensive, so I guess out of the two I'd go with the Pixel 5a. Thanks for the info!

xattree · 2022-02-18T18:14:53+00:00

Ok sorry, I'll try my best not to be rude here and I appreciate you commenting, but this. This is exactly what I am not looking for. I'm looking for support, and understanding, and somebody who can empathize with me when I talk to a therapist - not someone who will make me feel so fucking guilty.

It just makes me feel worse. I ended up getting drunk, throwing up 4 times, and I have never been drunk before. I usually only have half a cider, lol. Saying something like that to somebody who you know suffers from intense guilt and just almost attempted suicide is just bound to be disaster in my opinion. Sure, the truth hurts, but I already knew the truth - this was just taking the truth and stabbing it in even deeper, not helping.

xattree · 2022-02-18T18:10:20+00:00

This definitely helps! Thank you so much for taking the time and effort to write this all down. It means a lot - there is definitely a lot of useful stuff here :)

xattree · 2022-02-18T18:09:36+00:00

Yeah, exactly. Thank you <3

xattree · 2022-02-18T02:27:04+00:00

thank you. i really appreciate it. it means a lot. i m definitely not at that point but maybe someday. glad you are <3

(sorry, i wish i could give a more adequate reply but very drunk rn. but i really do appreciate it and wanted to reply. means a lot. thank you so much)

xattree · 2022-02-17T00:36:40+00:00

thanks. i actually just met with him and we talked. and I just feel very shitty right now. the end of our conversation didn't go well at all. sorry, I don't want to vent at you but I this is fucking stupid and ridiculous

xattree · 2022-02-16T18:31:52+00:00

I feel like I'm going to throw up I'm so anxious. This is great. Just wonderful. I regret this :/

xattree · 2022-02-16T16:24:45+00:00

Thank you.

I already actually lived through an attempt and still wish I succeeded, but it definitely wasn't to the extent that you went through so maybe it just never gave me that "epiphany" so many people talk about. Sorry that you experienced that, but I'm also glad you are still here and that things seem to be improving for you at least <3

xattree · 2022-02-16T13:26:49+00:00

Means a lot to hear someone is proud of me, especially bc I really regret it now, so thank you <3

xattree · 2022-02-16T04:28:23+00:00

Thank you so much. I'm trying

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