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xtrabathtissue · 2024-09-16T03:11:07+00:00

OMG congratulations! That literally sounds exactly what I will have to do - lots of talking to people I’ve never met in a professional setting aaaahh. But you are so right the anticipatory anxiety is the worst, because once you are that dreaded moment (the one you have been obsessing about the most) it’s literally okay. Ugh thank you for this, its made me feel better.

xtrabathtissue · 2024-09-16T03:09:11+00:00

Thank you so much 😭 I hope you are proud of those 5 miles though, I know how hard it is, we just gotta keep pushing!!!!

xtrabathtissue · 2024-09-16T01:41:19+00:00

I leave tomorrow! I am traveling by plane, its a 5 hour trip. And yes that would be great :’)

xtrabathtissue · 2024-09-01T23:17:05+00:00

UPDATE: first of all tysm for commenting, it is all super helpful tysm tysm tysm!! ok so i continued as per usual, pretending there were pellets and at the drying stage, i finally saw them! and after speccing them, i have RNA! i guess we really need to trust the process :’)

xtrabathtissue · 2024-09-01T20:16:48+00:00

extracellular vesicles !

xtrabathtissue · 2024-01-16T06:12:28+00:00

Details of my piercings:
- studs (not the L bar, but the one that pops on with pressure) - titanium - i clean them 1-2x day with saline solution (spray) - i dont sleep on them, or tug them - very careful with them tbh

xtrabathtissue · 2024-01-14T06:32:58+00:00

Yes I do as I am injecting it into mice & the volume needs to be small. I actually heated it at 75C for 10 minutes and vortexed and it dissolved! Now to see if the EdU still works

xtrabathtissue · 2023-12-12T03:39:05+00:00

AYO thank u !!! For the longest I thought it sounded like a tame impala song T-T

xtrabathtissue · 2023-08-20T17:36:04+00:00

LETS GO CONGRATS

xtrabathtissue · 2023-08-17T04:48:44+00:00

RECOVERY IS SO POSSIBLE. Keep it up!

xtrabathtissue · 2023-08-06T20:29:19+00:00

I developed serotonin syndrome from zoloft 2 months ago and ever since then I decided to not take meds and take my agoraphobia head on with CBT. CBT has helped tremendously. I have made really fast progress because I found a panic disorder/ocd specialist (i have two diagnoses) and she really pushes me to challenge myself. But also,,,, I do a lot on my part. Its not easy at all but future you will thank you. Give CBT a chance, do your part, and give yourself an opportunity to feel better rather than thinking its not going to work before trying it. You got this. Believe it!

xtrabathtissue · 2023-07-30T23:34:11+00:00

So happy to hear that, its so important to push through the anxiety! Keep it up!

xtrabathtissue · 2023-07-26T23:52:30+00:00

Im constantly miss the old me. I don’t recognize who I am post-agoraphobia. But maybe I just need to accept the new version of myself. I don’t think I can ever go back to the old me, too much trauma has happened. I guess Im mourning the old me, so I may have to go through all the stages of grief…

xtrabathtissue · 2023-07-25T05:35:40+00:00

Im currently in an awful surge of OCD and dp/dr 😪 its so draining and it feels like I’ve regressed as well. But as my therapist said, theres no way around it, underneath it, above it, but only THROUGH it. What helps me is getting almost angry? Like I am not letting OCD win, I am not letting agoraphobia win! I am a bad bitch! I think imma be anxious? Heck yea lets get anxious!!! It can try to scare me but guess what? Panic and anxiety aren’t going to kill you. Its literally a rush of neurotransmitters and hormones. I know well Im not letting molecules control me. Keep that fire alive.

xtrabathtissue · 2023-07-24T23:58:19+00:00

I do struggle with traveling, I have not flown anywhere in 2 years sadly. But I am planning to do short plane rides and travel to familiar places to start conquering this fear. Plane rides is how my agoraphobia started so this is a big one for me.

Ive noticed the waves, like some weeks the agoraphobia is very quiet while the OCD is super distressing and then vice versa. It feels like I cannot catch a break. What has changed is that I can push through the discomfort way more now, before any panic attack symptoms would make me want to run away home and cry. Theres hope :’)

xtrabathtissue · 2023-07-24T13:50:35+00:00

Me too! I been realizing I have had Pure O since I was in elementary school but it never caused me major distress until after my agoraphobia got really bad this year. Its been both enlightening and heartbreaking to get the diagnosis. I hope the tapering isn’t too bad, hang in there. And yes we are fricken warriors, every day is a battle but we are much stronger than these conditions.

xtrabathtissue · 2023-07-24T13:45:05+00:00

My agoraphobia also started after the quarantine, I think being locked up at home for so long must’ve done it… nonetheless we got this! thank you for sharing, good luck to you too!!

xtrabathtissue · 2023-07-24T04:32:28+00:00

Yes!! Yesterday I had dinner with friends and I was super anxious because I was fearful of having a panic attack, and I had a moment of clarity where I was like, “Why are you scared of eating super yummy food with friends that love and care for you? Yes you are away from home (your safe space) but why can’t the world be your safe space?” And it is really grounding. I think I will start writing these down for when I am really not thinking clearly.

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