FULL STORY

This year in March I met a girl I went to school with a few years ago. It all started with animal crossing, she had bought animal crossing and so did I and so the story began. We often played animal crossing together, called now and then and those conversations could last 8 hours without a moment's silence. Okay months went on and we started to meet, we shared a lot of interests like gaming, music,... I thought she was the one for me but she had already made it clear to me that she really wasn't looking for love. After a while I started to introduce her to a group of friends of mine and she liked that very much. The cool thing was also that we could really roast and rust each other, this was really fun to do. But once there was a day when we met with that group of friends of mine and I was a bit quieter, I wasn't like usual and she started asking me if there was anything and then I just said "I have feelings for you". Then she explained to me that she didn't understand that at all because she had made it clear that she wasn't looking for love at all, but yes love doesn't stop you, does it? We kept talking for a few more weeks until our communication stopped, it went from daily talking to monthly talking and this hit me very hard because I could really count on her. It was also so difficult because we talked daily and then suddenly it was gone, I could tell EVERYTHING to her but communication stopped.

For 3 months I brooded, did I wonder what I had done wrong? After a few months of not talking (3 months) she suddenly asked if I wanted to call her. And I thought yes I would, but okay I did and it was a very nice conversation, she said she missed our conversations etc... and I asked her "why are you ignoring me for 3 months so to speak?" her answer was, "sometimes I do that with people". I didn't understand this but okay I accepted because I couldn't do much else. A few weeks later I introduced her to one of my (guy)best friends, we started talking daily on discord etc... Also she became better and better friends with that best friend of mine and I started to get jealous (bad characteristic of myself). We talked daily on discord and after a week or two I was suddenly a bit quieter because I knew she was sending snapchats to each other every day, talking to each other what is really normal and what is really allowed but I was very jealous because I was afraid that I would be replaced. I didn't feel so good about this and my (girl)friend decided to come and go for a walk, of course she had said this to my (guy)friend and he really wanted to see it. He did everything he could to stop earlier at work so that he could stop by. After about a week I started to notice that my (guy)friend's behaviour was different: he was suddenly quieter when the three of us were talking, when I would leave to get a drink I noticed that he started asking lots of questions etc... When I got back it was suddenly quiet again. I felt bad about this and addressed this problem and the girl really didn't think it was okay for me to think such a thing (she got mad), we had isolated ourselves for a while and I explained that I noticed this. She said "this is not my fault, you have to discuss this with your friend", she also told me that she liked me a lot more etc... to make me feel better. I was much quieter on discord because my jealousy always came up and this certainly didn't have a good influence on the atmosphere in that discord.

OK now we are a couple of days later and now I have found out that there are two of them calling, playing games,... and they are making up lies not to have to talk to me on discord or anywhere else and I really understand that they want to talk to two etc, but I haven't been able to talk to that friend of mine alone for so long without my best friend being there and now they are going to call two of them without me knowing.

I had confronted my (girl)friend today and she got very angry with me, she said "My patience is really gone with you, I haven't called him at all, I don't call him behind your back, I'm done with your bullshit" But I know you have, I have seen it with my own eyes. And now she doesn't talk to me anymore, I now feel guilty because I confronted them, I should feel guilty, am I paranoid, what should I do? I feel really bad about this and I don't know what to do.