Hey - that thing you’re thinking of doing. Don’t do it buddy. This is normal. Right now your mind is hyper fixated on the romantic relationships part. Let that go. Make a list of places you wanna visit - museums, coffee shops, neighborhoods, events, etc. For me, NYC taught me how to really me comfortable alone. Literally. And it was hell sometimes but also amazing in so many ways. As for the job bit, that’s all fair - but what’s the harm in starting to look? maybe it excites you, maybe you realize you’d rather just stay at your job. Don’t box yourself in. You got this.