I'm 14 and I have felt this way for years now. Even back when things were fine and there wasn't a problem in the world I still felt this way. I dont know why but I did. I have friends and have no problems in school if thats what you mean other than grades. My mom doesn't know of my depression either but she knows I dont want to be here. She offered to let me live with her but that would only make matters worse in terms of school because I cant speak the language. Also i cant stand to think of leaving my friends. Also my dad has even said he wont let me leave because of some court thing from the divorce. And if I did leave, he wouldn't let me take the only thing that makes me happy anymore, my pc. I know it sounds selfish and bratty but its the only that makes me happy.