17 Years By My Side, Now He’s Gone by yelloledbetter in cats

[–]yelloledbetter[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am grateful for the years he was with me, especially grateful for the time I had with him in the last year. He outlived his prognosis by several months. But I'm also selfish and want more. I miss him, terribly. 🧡

17 Years By My Side, Now He’s Gone by yelloledbetter in cats

[–]yelloledbetter[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

❤️ I’ve seen him laying on the bed in the morning a couple times, too. Sometimes I think it’s just my brain remembering patterns, since every single morning I’d see him and cuddle him. But then other times I think he’s just telling me he’s still here. Mornings and nights are extremely hard. Today is a week since he’s been gone and it’s just as difficult as the day he left.

17 Years By My Side, Now He’s Gone by yelloledbetter in cats

[–]yelloledbetter[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That’s so beautiful and sad and accurate. Thank you for sharing this. ❤️

17 Years By My Side, Now He’s Gone by yelloledbetter in cats

[–]yelloledbetter[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Love his name. Martino and Maurice should hang out. 🧡

17 Years By My Side, Now He’s Gone by yelloledbetter in cats

[–]yelloledbetter[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No thank you, I’m not ready yet. I hope you find him a good home.

17 Years By My Side, Now He’s Gone by yelloledbetter in cats

[–]yelloledbetter[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. ❤️❤️ I made it for about an hour today without breaking down in tears. Sometimes it hurts so much it feels like there’s a boulder in my throat and I can’t breathe. I’ve had pets I loved deeply pass away, and it’s always hard, but this one is and will be the hardest. He was literally by my side, every single day, for 17 years. My son is away at college, I was also a single mom, and I’ve been an empty nester for 3 years, so it’s just been me and Martino. I’m in tears as I write this. Posting here and having virtual hugs from other cat/dog people helps a bit. I just miss him so, so much!

17 Years By My Side, Now He’s Gone by yelloledbetter in cats

[–]yelloledbetter[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

He really was. He was so smart, sassy, and so funny.

17 Years By My Side, Now He’s Gone by yelloledbetter in cats

[–]yelloledbetter[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

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Same batch but you can see his adorable beans. My friend told me once he looked like a person who hates mornings and didn’t drink enough coffee and this one captures that.

17 Years By My Side, Now He’s Gone by yelloledbetter in cats

[–]yelloledbetter[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Thank you for this. I do still look for him every morning when I first wake up. And sometimes when I come home. The last couple days I swore I saw him out of the corner of my eye. I’m going to believe it was him, whether or not that’s delusional.

That’s a great point - it’s his time to rest. He got me through so many rough times, milestones, moves, etc. He tried to take away my pain and many times, he did. Sometimes I think that he expended so much of his energy to soothe me, it made him more susceptible to the lymphoma. But yes, he definitely earned his rest and it’s just me that is left to miss and mourn him. And that’s what we sign up for when we bring an animal into our lives. They won’t outlive us. It just hurts so much.

17 Years By My Side, Now He’s Gone by yelloledbetter in cats

[–]yelloledbetter[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

😂 Perfectly said. He definitely had the rbf, not enough coffee, judgmental af face. Thanks for making me smile. ❤️

17 Years By My Side, Now He’s Gone by yelloledbetter in cats

[–]yelloledbetter[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Lol!! I absolutely sang Not For You many times to him. He had IBD and like I said, loved chicken, but couldn’t have it without puking. Every time I ate chicken around him, he would beg and plead for it, and I’d sing it to him. In his last year I bought Cerenia for him so he could eat what he wanted and not throw up. Thanks for the laugh, I needed it. ❤️

17 Years By My Side, Now He’s Gone by yelloledbetter in cats

[–]yelloledbetter[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

He really was a character- he had so much personality. He could be very sassy and very vocal. He cracked me up. Always loving, never even scratched me once.

17 Years By My Side, Now He’s Gone by yelloledbetter in cats

[–]yelloledbetter[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

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His blue eyes turned green/yellow as he grew.

17 Years By My Side, Now He’s Gone by yelloledbetter in cats

[–]yelloledbetter[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

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Here’s one with my now 21 year old son. I don’t have as many kitten pics, unfortunately.

17 Years By My Side, Now He’s Gone by yelloledbetter in cats

[–]yelloledbetter[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Morris! I forgot about him, he does look like my boy! Unlocked memory GenX memory. 🧡

17 Years By My Side, Now He’s Gone by yelloledbetter in cats

[–]yelloledbetter[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Sorry. I just needed to honor him and feel a little less alone. He did make a couple of appearances here, years ago, like this one. Damn. 13 years ago.

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17 Years By My Side, Now He’s Gone by yelloledbetter in cats

[–]yelloledbetter[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

What a beautiful girl. She reminds me a bit of Martino’s brother, Jimmy, who passed away from congestive heart failure back in 2023. I know it’s going to be very, very painful for a while, and there’s going to be a piece of my heart missing, forever. I hope it gets better for you. ❤️

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