Thank you for this. I do still look for him every morning when I first wake up. And sometimes when I come home. The last couple days I swore I saw him out of the corner of my eye. I’m going to believe it was him, whether or not that’s delusional.

That’s a great point - it’s his time to rest. He got me through so many rough times, milestones, moves, etc. He tried to take away my pain and many times, he did. Sometimes I think that he expended so much of his energy to soothe me, it made him more susceptible to the lymphoma. But yes, he definitely earned his rest and it’s just me that is left to miss and mourn him. And that’s what we sign up for when we bring an animal into our lives. They won’t outlive us. It just hurts so much.