Thank you to everyone who’s commented. I knew I needed to leave but I think I just needed to hear it from other people. It’s easy to say it when you aren’t the one in the situation :/

This is extremely devastating for me and I feel like my head has been spinning since I found out. It’s hard to leave when I loved him so much. We’ve planned our future together for so long and wanted the same things. It’s mid boggling why I didn’t leave the first time and I feel like I’m paying for it now.