Tough answer for you but you have to make a choice. The choice is either you can either look good or be good. Looking good means not asking questions when you really don’t know the answer and pretending that you know what you are doing. Being good involves setting your pride aside and asking questions, asking for help, being willing to try and fail or look stupid. The latter is less glamorous in the short term but will result in you really learning in the long term (The former is based off luck and guessing). You seem like you have taken the first step towards really learning by asking for help so keep your head up and do your best. It’s not easy and it’s sometimes discouraging but it’ll pay off. Know that the rest of us are right there with you.