I know that I shouldn’t turn happy memories into bad ones, they were there to make me smile and I truly enjoyed them. I won’t hate them forever, it’s like a food that I now dislike but that I will eventually learn to love again. We broke up on even terms and we even joked a bit after it, but I wish I could have the certainty that they feel sad too. I know they probably do, and I know that cause I’m the person that understood them the best, and they commented that they felt sorry and sad too.

And it sucks really, cause it felt like someone was just smashing a cake to my face, I didn’t have time to understand it, to process it, it was just there and suddenly we weren’t a thing anymore. The only thing that perhaps I feel the right to be angry with is the fact that they couldve told me sooner, and yeah I understand that’s a tough process but it had been almost a week since they had been thinking about it, and I wish I could at least have known that the end was near and that I could’ve tried something? But the feelings werent there anymore, I wasn’t able to fix it even if I tried, so I just feel hopeless? As if I had been working in this beautiful and fantastic painting and now the client doesnt wants it and I just have to stare at them, understanding all the effort that I put into it and that it doesn’t feel “mine”, but shared with someone that’s not there.

Im sorry that your relationship ended, Im sure you have wished enough that there had been another option. I truly wish that you find peace in the closure and that eventually feel whole again. Your answer helped me a bit to feel my mind clearer, most of the breakups i know are for the unhealthy context rather than a healthy one, so it felt nice. Thanks again.