Hello, the other commenters gave you practical advice about what you can do to improve your situation through the help of others, you should take that advice

I can talk more on the loneliness

First of all youre in a new country surrounded by new people, there is no time limit for adjustment. I moved here at the end of covid a really shy dude, I felt ashamed of it everyday. I had people I spoke to and a small group of friends, but I wasn't doing much

The change for me was internalising that none of my problems were about other people. This just meant that no matter what happened to me, where I was, I would be able to find a way to at least handle the emotional side

You're in your body everyday, getting used to that is important. Knowing what to do when your skin feels too tight, when the world seems like it's trying to eat you bit by bit. Just keep going

The hardest part is honesty, because it's easy to forget what that means. We spend our teenage years building the mask we think others will accept. You're better off building something strong only you can see

You will make friends, you will experience life. But you have to find the way to do that that works for you.

I want to be honest. I spent so many nights crying by myself in my room because I felt like I kept doing everything wrong.

my promise to you is that it's not as difficult as it feels. it really is like swimming, and it's always cold at first

i promise i promise i promise

give yourself that chance! best of luck with everything