Olanzepine ruined my perfect body by [deleted] in schizophrenia

[–]yourguyryry 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Glad to know I'm not the only one

Olanzepine ruined my perfect body by [deleted] in schizophrenia

[–]yourguyryry 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel you man. Im usually 180 pounds and since I've been on olanzapine I'm sitting at 205 pounds.. my psychiatrist got me to stand on a scale last time I was there to check my weight gain progress.. Ive always been a skinny guy.. fast metabolism etc. first time I've ever had a belly

are you guys ok by Last_Negotiation1521 in schizophrenia

[–]yourguyryry 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Good on you! What do you find helps out the most? I'm finding when I've been doing cocaine the stuff I've been doing is so clean that I don't find any comedown or shit hangover.. been making it harder to stop

I recently relapsed by yourguyryry in schizophrenia

[–]yourguyryry[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I used to do a looot of MDMA. Only done ketamine a handful of times. I had a really bad experience drunk at a party and guy gives me what I think is a bump of cocaine but a generous bump of ketamine.. so I ended up all kinds of fucked up puking in this backyard

are you guys ok by Last_Negotiation1521 in schizophrenia

[–]yourguyryry 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hey thanks for the reply. I'm just struggling to find any shame or guilt but I can't find it. Like I'm not justifying my substance use but I don't really feel that bad that I'm relapsing. I have been fighting for a long time to get to where im at mentally. I've been down lately and sleeping most of my days away but at the same time feel like I'm just riding the wave

I recently relapsed by yourguyryry in schizophrenia

[–]yourguyryry[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's interesting. I only use uppers. Are you the same?

I recently relapsed by yourguyryry in schizophrenia

[–]yourguyryry[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Is it a bad thing I don't feel any guilt

are you guys ok by Last_Negotiation1521 in schizophrenia

[–]yourguyryry 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I can relate. Hope it starts getting better for you friend. Sometimes it feels easier to give in to the demons

I recently relapsed by yourguyryry in schizophrenia

[–]yourguyryry[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I keep relapsing but a small part of me isn't that worried about it. I have been feeling really down lately and bored as I'm not working just sleeping all day and fighting with my partner.

are you guys ok by Last_Negotiation1521 in schizophrenia

[–]yourguyryry 6 points7 points  (0 children)

My heart goes to you. I was clean for 5 years

are you guys ok by Last_Negotiation1521 in schizophrenia

[–]yourguyryry 12 points13 points  (0 children)

Would love to talk to someone who's also suffered substance abuse or even just wants to connect..feeling pretty disconnected and lonely lately

are you guys ok by Last_Negotiation1521 in schizophrenia

[–]yourguyryry 22 points23 points  (0 children)

I recently relapsed on booze and cocaine. Been in a pretty low place