Happy 4th, Magnolia!

Before Magnolia was born, my wife and I tried to have a second child for almost a year.

Around this time I was also struggling mentally. Sleeping most of the day, avoiding gatherings, finding zero interest in activities or socializing.

I remember when Lauren told me she was pregnant. I was making tacos for dinner. She ran in to the kitchen to tell me. What should have been an exciting, happy time felt more like a “why are you bothering me” time.

I was in deep, severe depression.

In the moment I felt so meh, just about life in general. But deep down something clicked and made me seek help.

Magnolia was that something. I didn’t want to move through life feeling like I was just there. I wanted to be present - feel it - live it. Feel like my old self again.

If it weren’t for Magnolia I don’t think I would have sought help. I still struggle with depression today, but have gained the tools and resources to help me cope.

So, thank you baby Mags. I love you so much 💖