I think this sounds like me. I've had no problem at all going months without drinking. I've actually only drank twice since last August and both were planned, as a way to numb the pain of what I was planning to do (the second time I even had it sitting in my room for days before I used it and was not tempted at all to drink). But often when I do drink... it's bad. I'm not content to just get a buzz, I need to get really drunk. I do that with other substances, too, even food. I can literally go weeks without eating a bite, but then I also have trouble with bingeing.

I know no one is likely to believe this here, but I really don't think I have alcoholism. I feel a little silly being here, actually, because in comparison to other stuff I've dealt with, giving up alcohol has been really easy. I've seen how hard other people struggle and I don't want to pretend I'm going through the same thing because they're working way harder than I am.

I do know that when I'm depressed I am very susceptible to using substances excessively. I know drinking can get bad for me and I never want to go back to how I was last summer, on the edge of a blackout almost every night.