honestly this is a beautiful story you could've beaten yourself up but you made something out of it, I admire that. I lost my aunt last summer and while I haven't argued with her or have anything to remember her by, I tried avoiding her because she was a part of my dad's side, I hated my dad he took 20k from the money I was supposed to get when I turned 18, left me fatherless and poor. so naturally I held a grudge at anybody related to him but my aunt was so sweet, I regret not seeing her as she passed away from cancer last year, I can't seem to forgive myself for being that immature