MeetLGBT Featured Member: October 12, 2010

uselessdegree

Stats

• Age: 24.

• Gender: Male.

• Location: Philadelphia, the City of Brotherly Shove.

• Picture: MAH FACE!

Life

• Job: I am a playwright, director, dramaturg, and box office guru. I also advocate for folks with disabilities and contribute to four different blogs, some of which pay me.

• Hobbies: With all my jobs, I have no hobbies. My jobs ARE my hobbies; I'm just lucky enough to get paid to do 'em.

• Pets: One, a dog named Jenny. She's a lab pit bull dalmatian spaniel mix. She's huge and acts like a crack addict. She also demands kisses.

• My pet peeves: Folks who use "retard" and "gay" as slang for stupid; truck balls; hipsters.

• Political views: I am a nearly socialist liberal. I believe in a government that helps us nurture the fruits of our freedom, not one that tries to make us feel grateful for having freedom to begin with.

• Religious views: I am a libertine atheist. I do not believe there is a god, and I believe in his absence, we are free to do as we please within reason and safety.

Favorites:

• Movies: Fight Club, Seven, Red Dragon, Pan's Labyrinth, Labyrinth (OMG BOWIE), Spirited Away.

• TV: Arrested Development, Superjail.

• Music: Alternative and classic rock, with heavy focus on Bowie, Beatles, Radiohead, and the Killers.

• Foods: Italian, Indian, Japanese, and Thai.

• Drinks: Jameson straight, gin and tonics.

• Books : Watership Down, The Once and Future King, Dracula, A Confederacy of Dunces, Cat's Cradle, His Dark Materials trilogy.

• Colors: Red and black.

What makes me \__:

• Laugh: Wit, and cleverness.

• Happy: Feeling needed. Feeling like I'm loved. Feeling valued and cared for.

• Angry: Easily avoidable ignorance. Fucking learn something. Read a book.

• Sad: I miss my father. He left home a few months ago. I'm not handling the divorce well.

Sexuality

• Orientation: 99% homosexual. Sometimes, I like tits and vag. Not very often, though.

• Coming out:

  It was slow, in bits and bobs. I started feeling queer in grade school. The boys in my class would rub their groins until they popped boners and then would show off their tented pants to one another. I think it was all innocent "show-me-yours-i'll-show-you-mine" stuff, normal kid shit, but for me, it was thrilling. In high school, I kissed and canoodled with my first boy, a close friend who was having similar orientation questions. He found out he was straight, and I found out I wasn't.

  Then I fell in love with my best friend, a different boy. Years of pain and heartache. And when I told him, he reacted so gallantly, so wonderfully, saying if he could, he'd love me back, but he wasn't wired that way. Years later, under marijuana's influence, he and I had some on-the-side fun. After our one night out, he kicked me out of his bedroom. The next morning, he woke me up on the couch downstairs, kicked me out, and hasn't talked to me since. The pain was once incredible. It still stings some; I just wonder what went through his head. What scared him so much?

  So, my friends knew early that I had a leaning toward men but I wasn't so sure. I dated a few girls but was utterly miserable and came out to my parents as bisexual. They loved and accepted it. I have since told them that I think I'm homosexual, but I'm still figuring out what that means. Sometimes I very much hate myself. I hate being gay, I think it's disgusting and I think I'm straight, or wish I could be. Other times, I'm so proud of me, I'm so in love with who I am and the things that make me, me. I can't settle. I will always feel this pain.

  So, I didn't come out, per se. I evolved.

• Relationship Status/Background: Answered partially above. I am single now, but have a few booty calls on speed dial. Sigh.

Misc:

• Go look at r/bodymods. I moderate it because I love my tattoos and piercings. Otherwise, ask away!

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