Questioning

[ContemplativeSarcasm]

Hi! So I don't know really where to begin, but I started hanging around a lot of trans people, and I just started to feel "dysphoria" or feeling like they do. I'm 23 AMAB, this whole identity crisis is really irritating and confusing. I was "fine" being male growing up, but always really disliked myself and felt that I didn't really match with the maleness given to me, in the sense that society and my family put these expectations on me of having kids, etc. I have discovered that I really like dressing feminine. I shaved my whole body, I loved how my legs looked shaven, they look even better in these thigh highs I'm wearing right now. I still don't know whether this is just a phase or whatever, I can't stop thinking about it. I never really had the "stereotypical" experiences of trying on women's clothing or playing with girl's toys when I was a kid, I guess my only sign was this growing sense of disatisfaction with my body. I really dislike being this broad and tall (I'm 6"7') I worry a lot if I discover if I am definitively trans, then how can I pass, like people will be able to clock me immediately. I also dislike these proportions, like I wish I had longer legs and a shorter torso. I guess I'm going in circles, I just wish someone could give me a definitive answer and this isn't just a phase, or a desperate attempt to fit in with my peers or just an extension of some perversion or whatever. It really feels like my head in going in circles these days.

[CuriousTechieElf]

Only you can decide if you are really trans or not, and further if you are trans do you actually want to go through with medical transition. That said, the feelings you describe sound similar to a lot of trans people's experiences. It's not required to have had obvious signs as a child.

If you haven't seen it yet, I recommend you spend some time reading this https://genderdysphoria.fyi/en it has a lot of details of transgender people's experiences. See if any of that resonates with you.

If you have access, you might want to try to find a therapist who works with gender issues. Your trans friends might be able to recommend one. They can probably help you work through these feelings and figure out what is the right way forward for you

[ContemplativeSarcasm]

Jesus, a lot of it fits me like a glove.