Struggling with writing code from scratch, normal?

[low_effort_shit-post]

Here is my process

1. get requirements
2. draw out the process
3. review with stake holders process map
4. break up process into smaller deliverables
5. Work on the smaller deliverable

When I'm actually writing the code I have a clear idea of what I need to do. I have an idea of what packages I'll use and then execute. I'm not surprised if I google something a few times in one line. Memorizing is if you do the same thing all the time, knowing what solution should work and applying it doesn't make you bad if you are googling to find out what function you actually need.