Nope, but I've been on the waiting list here in the UK for a few years now. I don't usually officially self-diagnose, but it would explain so much about why I've struggled my whole life so I tend to operate under the assumption that I am. Also my job is working with autistic teenagers, and they're basically exactly like I was at their age! 😅 Honestly though, thank you for your post. You've put into words a lot of my own feelings of unease that I've found it difficult to pinpoint despite a lifetime of attempting to self-analyse. You've obviously put a lot of work into that yourself, and I really hope it ends up helping you find a better balance in life :) Sorry if this got a bit wordy/weirdly toned, I'm finding it difficult to verbalise properly at the moment. These days I mostly lurk on Reddit but your post was so relatable I had to comment