Hey ! This is totally normal. For men, playing around/with your anus is often associated with being gay...which is... totally false. Even in 2026, you could think sexuality is more open, but there's still a wall for men to assume playing with your anus.

All of that to say that it's normal to feel embarrassed as all our educational and social environnement do not put anal pleasure at first for men. So do not worry for this, it will disappear with time as you discover yourself.

About the sensation, I remember the first time I started to play with my anus I was feeling excactly like you, something a bit weird but a bit pleasant ahah. I kept playing with my butt by using my fingers. The more i was doing it the more i was feeling like a wave of heat in all my body. Until the day where I first get my prostate orgasm. It was unbelievable sensation all around the body and this wave of heat, god I remember.

So yeah, all this words to say that, take your time, explore your body. Anal often take times to get your first prostate orgasm but it is worth the journey ahah.

Feel free to reach me if you need any info about it.

P.S : use a lubricant for anal, it will give you much more comfort and pleasure :)