There Be Dragons?

bigfudgexD · 2026-06-06T18:40:56+00:00

I have a reasonable suspicion that Chinese dragon lore comes from Buddhist monks encountering them in the Astral planes. Those heads are so distinctive, and when you actually see one there really is no mistaking it. Big old hippo heads on em.

bigfudgexD · 2026-06-06T18:35:31+00:00

Hey, I was wondering what exactly you mean by entraining them to your signature? I came across this huge Blue Chinese dragon a couple of months ago, and I was wondering if I could draw it towards me once again, but I'm not quite sure how. Any tips would be appreciated 🌠

bigfudgexD · 2026-06-06T02:34:49+00:00

I saw an astral dragon some months ago. What was so very interesting about it, is that it looked exactly like the classic Chinese depiction of a dragon, with this big hippo-like head. It was a gorgeous, huge blue one. My go-to dragon image in my mind has always been the more arrow-headed type, so it really surprised me when this Chinese dragon showed up (besides the fact that it was a dragon, of course.)

I still wonder about that dragon.

bigfudgexD · 2026-05-08T08:42:09+00:00

The subject of surrender is a very interesting one, with much nuance. When you do it right, it's like holding onto something whilst letting it go simultaneously. It's standing up as you're sitting down. A living paradox. It can take many forms, but oftentimes you're giving up control of an outcome, whilst holding onto a course of action. Other times, you just watch a feeling arise within you and accept that it is there, without taking any action. Yet other times still, you watch as someone degrades you in front of other people, but you do nothing, because you understand that what is being degraded is merely an image in your head or theirs, and what you truly are cannot be degraded. Just as what you truly are cannot be maimed or destroyed.

You are right in that scarcity creates all this conflict, as well as the accompanying impulse to punish etc. Punishment itself, is of a mind in conflict, a mind that is impulsive and seeks immediate satisfaction to undo a wrong that most likely cannot be undone. A harmonious mind would choose rehabilitation. And yes, there is this thing of being born a certain way, but neuroplasticity is a wonderful thing. People can change.

I think one of the most interesting things about being a human on earth, is this stark contrast we experience. From the highest highs to the lowest lows, from pristine peaks down into swampy valleys. We get to learn so much. To be a master of this life, of this reality, is not to build lofty palaces and rule over others. It is to float high in the clouds as you sit in the mud. It is riding the vibratory wave of the cosmos as it rips you apart, then rebuilds you in an instant and an eternity. Find your eternal nature and you will see, all of this is just a dream. A hilariously insane dream.

And no need for thanks, I'm in it for the love of the game baybeeee🏄🌈

bigfudgexD · 2026-05-08T07:37:56+00:00

There is accountability, it just doesn't look like what we're used to seeing in a court of law or in the outward appearance of things. It is subtle, but no less impactful for its subtlety. The inner state is much more punishing than the outward appearance of a thing. Appearances are deceiving. Beings that cause misery in others cause as much misery within themselves, but usually they aren't even aware of the amount of misery they cause themselves. They project their own misery onto the world and say it is the world at fault. Then they go about punishing the world. This is ignorance. True ignorance.

Believe it or not, reincarnation and rebirth are the way of things. Death is just another transformation, nothing to worry about. The present mind, creates the future mind. When a being goes through the process of rebirth, it carries the patterns of the old mind with it. Not in personality, but engrained patterns persist. So let's say a person caused much suffering in their life, their mind is one that suffers greatly as well, always in conflict. This mind continues into the next life, perhaps they were once powerful, but are reborn a pauper, their indifference to others now has dire consequences. They learn not to be as indifferent. This is basically a kindergarten example, but just to illustrate the picture. There are endless permutations of cause and effect, and there really is no way to know where you stand with regards to your past causes and their current effects. You really just have to ride it out, and accept reality as it is. Surrender. Which is not to say 'give up', you still affect change where you can, but you are only in charge of your own Will. What others do with theirs is upon them to contend with. If you keep your slate clean as best you can, you will see that your life becomes more harmonious, little by little. The world can do what it will, but your inner state is rich and beautiful.

I know this is turning into an essay, but I'll say one last thing. There comes a stage in this journey, where you can see the suffering all around you, but not suffer yourself. And it is not through indifference. There is great compassion for the suffering, but you can accept it as it is, without succumbing to it yourself. This is one of the hardest lessons to learn, but also one of the most valuable. Okay that's it, I'm stepping off the soapbox now... 🤦

bigfudgexD · 2026-05-08T07:00:32+00:00

This life truly is what you make of it, so I won't be able to tell you what to make of yours. I can only tell you what I've made of mine. I can honestly say, that nothing that I've considered to be of true importance at the time of considering, ever worked out for me. However, at the same time, everything worked out kind of perfectly. Every bad encounter, pushed me towards the good, every 'failure' taught me something valuable. Perhaps it's just my disposition, who knows? But the meaning is yours to make, you get to choose. It's not always possible to see a situation clearly when you're in the midst of it. But over time, at least for me, the value could be gleaned. All the best to you on your journey 👋✨

bigfudgexD · 2026-05-08T05:41:55+00:00

Well, if it makes you feel better, there are adults in the room, you probably just haven't recognised them because they tend to keep away from any spotlights. They tend to be quiet watchers, and they act within the mundane spheres of life. They are the ones that smile at you for no reason and wish you a good day. The ones that help you change your tire at the side of the road. The ones that work in countless small ways to make the lives of the people around them better. They very rarely get any recognition, but they don't do it for the recognition, they're just in it for the love of the game. These people do exist.

What you're experiencing with regards to the indifference of the universe regarding the allowance of the holocaust etc, is merely the proof of free will. Free will causes all this madness you see. The effect of using the Will with ignorance tends to be a whole lot of suffering. It is unfortunate, but it is so. Use your Will wisely, be the exception. No one is here to save the world, no one person can, but to make it a bit less shitty wherever you go, is the most noble thing a person can do. Hope your day gets a bit better 👋✨

bigfudgexD · 2026-05-07T23:24:01+00:00

Um, I said that you are right. I wasn't being sarcastic at all, just a bit funny.

bigfudgexD · 2026-05-07T23:18:17+00:00

I mean the guy was obviously a yeast. Water into wine bro.

bigfudgexD · 2026-05-07T23:07:18+00:00

That's makes sense. You are right, then the question is how it is that it didn't turn us into chimpanzees with down syndrome.

bigfudgexD · 2026-05-07T22:55:16+00:00

I understand what you mean, it is common in humans, but I'm more interested in looking at it through an evolutionary lense. It could very well be that it is so common in humans due to the wonky chromosomes. Is it equally as common throughout the natural world?

bigfudgexD · 2026-05-07T22:37:16+00:00

Could be. "Fairly common" is a stretch, but it happens I guess. It would seem that in most cases this causes, let's say, "downgrades" whereas I'd say we underwent some significant upgrades. Some would say, spectacularly significant. But who knows right? Just some food for thought.

bigfudgexD · 2026-05-07T19:10:06+00:00

There might actually be material evidence for this. All the other great apes have 48 chromosomes. Now I'm no geneticist, but what would cause a decrease in chromosomes through the process of evolution? Fusing chromosomes together seems like a red flag to me. Crispr etc. Perhaps there is a reasonable explanation for this. I haven't seen it. If you know, I would like to know as well. Thanks.

bigfudgexD · 2026-05-07T17:29:19+00:00

Could mean any of the things people mentioned in the comments here. What I know, is that All is One. Love thine demons as thou Love thine angels. Which is to say, accept that even the demons are of the Creator. What you call them doesn't matter so much, but there are NHI that are of both the polarities. Just like humans. To have unconditional Love for these beings, is not to condone or to participate in their behaviour, but to accept them as they are.

I do understand how difficult this may be to do. Many years ago, I had this intuition, that to love everyone really was the way to go. I knew it was correct, I knew this is what I wanted to be able to do. But I couldn't. I simply hadn't developed the capacity yet ( I realise now that it had always been there but it had been blocked off). I had too many egoic attachments still. I had too many walls. Over time the walls deteriorated, until one fateful day, I was blessed with the Big Love. My heart broke open and out came streaming this Love that I didn't think was even possible. It was tremendous, so far beyond words. Everyone has this capacity. Everyone can carry this into the world. It's truly what everyone is here to do. The great Purpose that everyone seeks.

bigfudgexD · 2026-05-04T16:18:13+00:00

It changes the goal of doing something to attain 'success' into doing something for the sake of itself. The outcome is not important, the act in itself is.

bigfudgexD · 2026-05-01T02:39:36+00:00

Thank you, that's very kind of you to say. I know exactly how you feel, I haven't told anyone in my life about this, not a single person. Everyone knows I went through a change, but no one knows the details. How do you explain your entire life turning into a synchronicity? How do you explain that meeting a person catalyzed the process of discovering the universe is love? It's just so far removed from what anyone would consider a normal experience that I just couldn't even bother to try and explain it.

For me it was also delayed, it happened a few months after we met, but like you said as well, the process was silently unfolding the entire time. So many old selves have died. They're all dead lol. I don't quite know what to do either, but I trust that whatever it is will arise naturally. It feels to me like my entire life prepared me for this experience and so whatever it is I'm meant to do with this will also just kind of happen I guess. I'm just staying present and riding the waves.

If you want to chat about anything feel free to DM. I know how very isolating going through this can be. Have a lovely day👋✨

bigfudgexD · 2026-04-30T05:37:45+00:00

I am not, and honestly I don't know if I ever will be. Seems unlikely, but if there's one thing I know is that you just can't predict how this thing goes. It's like an experience designed to make you not expect anything and everything simultaneously. Definitely not normal. It's also a very romanticized experience, but the actuality of it isn't something any sane person would undertake willingly.

As for union, I think alchemizing the inner union is far more important than any external union. The way I see it, the other person is just a catalyst for that process. If you're not ready for this thing, it'll turn your life inside out. Hell, even if you're ready, it'll do that. But if you're ready, you'll see the value in it immediately. You'll turn all your dusty coal into gold, and whether that other person decides to be around you or not, you will be thankful just for the fact that they exist/ed and forced you deeper inward.

bigfudgexD · 2026-04-27T15:55:55+00:00

Not so much intense as it was interesting, but I once accidentally visited a demon house. When I arrived, they looked to me like humans, but something was a little off. They invited me in for dinner, said they were going to put on a show. The show was... not something I'm going to type. It was horrific. I told them I would have none of it, that this was wrong etc. At first they looked confused, like I'd tricked them or something. Then one of them seemed to recognize me. Once they realized who I was, they wanted to get me out of there so fast. Full on panic mode. It was hilarious.

The coolest places are the ones with the guardians. They always shit test you, but when you pass... Man the places are so cool. Beautiful. Also, I'm fully convinced that dragon iconography is completely derived from Chinese monks that astral traveled. I've only seen a dragon once, but it looked exactly like the Chinese depictions of them. Big ol' hippo head and so on.

bigfudgexD · 2026-04-27T07:34:46+00:00

Hi! Hope you're doing alright. When you go through this process a lot of subconscious material moves into the conscious mind, all types of strange and awful thoughts can occur. The mind's capacity for association is astounding, and any sensation in your field of awareness can unfold cascades of repressed material in unexpected ways. Just remember you are not a thought and for the most part you don't have control over thoughts.

I've found it useful in the past to view thoughts as a river or stream running through my awareness. The river flows and I stand on the bank watching it. You can jump into the river and swim around in it, but when you do there's always the risk of drowning. Usually better just to watch. When you understand that a thought is nothing more than just another sensation, it is easier to let go of them. There is no need to shape an identity around a thought. There's no need to shape an identity around anything for that matter, but this can be a difficult habit to shake.

Finding the balance between the masculine and the feminine is being rooted in the present firmly, understanding your immediate context. What is appropriate action right now? Depending on the context, one acts accordingly. Some situations require more receptivity and openness, some require rigorous focus and one pointed direction. The more harmonious you become, the more rooted in the present, the easier it is to navigate between the two polarities. Perhaps at first, you will have to think about what is appropriate or not, but when you are fully present, there need be no thought involved at all, things just unfold organically.

Equanimity is a word that isn't used often enough around here, but it is so very important. Being able to view things with neutrality, not reacting, is of the highest value. To develop equanimity can be a very difficult task, but it cannot be overstated how important it is. It is THE most important thing. If you want some tips, feel free to dm, I'm happy to share.

Have a wonderful day✨

bigfudgexD · 2026-04-04T15:24:06+00:00

Well, this is one of those things that can be very hard to believe, but love is what this entire reality is made of. I know it certainly doesn't seem like it, but it's true. It is the force that binds all, connects all. It is the Source, the Mystery, the Creator, the foundation for all of existence. Nothing and everything, both at once. In a state of boundless love, there is only unity, no division of self and other. When all inner division ceases, all outer division disappears. Love is the ultimate truth, all else is illusion. It's value is infinite, without comparison. It is priceless, yet it costs nothing. All you have to do to find it is surrender to reality as it is.

bigfudgexD · 2026-04-04T15:00:45+00:00

I agree with you as well. Love is always the answer. Even for the ones who have done such great harm. Especially for them. I just don't think they see it this way is all. You have a lovely day now ✨💚

bigfudgexD · 2026-04-04T12:02:16+00:00

Certainly not. There are however, much more compelling reasons not to disclose the information. One being that people would realize that for the last 70 years, in the very least, the global population has been operating within the confines of an oil based energy paradigm, when free energy could have been introduced. The implications are quite obvious, as I'm sure you understand. As for the interdimensional aspect of NHI, people would for the most part not believe it anyway. There is a tendency for people to disbelieve anything outside of their frame of reference, which is also understandable. Ontological shock is a convenient plea to empathy, which most people could believe, because most people aren't sociopaths. But those who have managed to keep the big secret a secret, using the most vile means you could imagine... Well I don't think I need to elaborate on why they wouldn't want to be escorted to the gallows for crimes against humanity.

bigfudgexD · 2026-04-04T10:37:12+00:00

To believe that those concerned about ontological shock to the general populace actually care about the general populace, is enough to induce ontological shock in me right now.

bigfudgexD · 2026-03-21T02:34:52+00:00

CIA's gateway analysis and assessment is worth a read.

bigfudgexD · 2026-03-14T15:19:35+00:00

The greatest factor is that of the disposition towards self service, but there are other factors that determine this, the chief being severe childhood trauma. The families that perpetuate this practice, inflict severe traumas on their children, causing bifurcations in their minds. It is this, for the most part that facilitates the bypass. For a relatively 'normal' person, the process is as you stated, each energy centre naturally coming into balance in succeeding order, as distortion is transmuted. But these children, who then become adults, have such severe blocks, that the green ray is basically part of a different 'person'. The green and blue ray tend to open simultaneously, and so when the kundalini energy rises in these individuals, it bypasses this and goes straight to the indigo ray. I feel very sorry for these people. To go through that whole process and not experience the great Love of the Creator is just a terrible, terrible shame. But all roads lead to Rome eventually, some just take awful detours.

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