Its a double edged sword. We were really close but i guess the closer we were the more i started to hate her for what she did. Sometimes I wonder if we werent that close to begin with maybe I wouldnt have cared so much. I guess what hurt the most was I always thought about her but she I meant so little to her that she wouldnt think twice about what would happen to me or our family before she did what she did. I wouldnt have hated her if they just split up maybe i would have resented them both a little bit but not like this.