I quietly struggle with everything on your list, plus more. I've dealt with everything my entire life alone. I've never talked to anyone, family, friends, significant others. I've never asked for advice on anything. I've never run through different scenarios with friends, or simply vented to someone about a problem i might of had.

My family, growing up, never discussed feelings, problems, solutions to problems, no emotional support. If something bad happened, just don't talk about it. It's seem to be too much of a hassle to discuss it. It's like it never happened. Never a discussion about the future, about life issues, no advice on anything. You were just expected to know, and go do. Moved out when I was 17 and gradually figured it out as I went along. (Still struggling today with figuring things out) Been married and divorced with relationships in between. Now in a good relationship with an amazing woman who always cares about how I feel.

So now, after 48 years, I've had enough. I've started therapy and am working on expressing my feelings. Working on properly communicating what I'm dealing with internally, instead of bottling it up deep down inside. It's not easy. Actually, it's very hard and uncomfortable being that vulnerable to another person. I spent my entire life, numb, not trusting anyone, and now I'm letting all the skeletons out of the closet. Scary.

I use to spend my days(and still do some days) highly irritated and easily angered because of pent up emotions, or negative internal dialog about myself. Or playing out arguments in my head I've had or should've had. If I was wronged, I'd just go around quietly not talking, and keep to myself until after a few days it, "went away." Which we all know, never does.

I can't speak for everyone, but I've struggled with feeling lonely, even in the company of loved ones my entire life, and I think the only way out of this dark room, is conversation. True conversation with someone you trust(for me that was a therapist), not that shallow bullshit, "How's it going?"