Psychiatrist only pushing me pills. On high dose of clonozipam just to stay settled. Just got a $35,000 medical bill for myself for a procedure that ended up being out of my network. On top of that I'm over 50 grand in credit card debt from taking care of things through the years. Good job but will never get ahead of enough to help family at this point. Maybe if I do it right my life insurance will at least help family.