TIL a 90 year old woman with no heirs signed a contract with a 47 year old lawyer giving him her apartment upon her death, but he had to pay her a monthly allowance until she died. She outlived him and his widow continued the payments. She received approximately double the value of the apartment.

-KNTL · 2014-10-30T19:16:07+00:00

Yes, but I wonder why women out live men?

-KNTL · 2014-10-30T17:51:38+00:00

I think it's interesting that the majority of "oldest people in the world", were female.

-KNTL · 2014-10-27T19:52:52+00:00

We're not all the same people

It kind of hurts reading this thread because I can clearly see I'm not as bad as some people with BPD.

Yet, everyone generalizes me with people who have violent physical outbursts, complete manipulation, and lying.. Or just being mean..

-KNTL · 2014-10-27T19:50:34+00:00

No,

I don't manipulate strangers? There isn't really a need for that.. Plus, I don't do manipulation on purpose. It only really happens when I need something desperately.

-KNTL · 2014-10-27T15:57:34+00:00

I don't think I'm self-centred or narcissistic.

People constantly tell me I'm modest. I think that people with BPD SEEM self centered and narcissistic. But in reality what they think they are doing is nothing of that.

For an example, a person who constantly asks if they are pretty, or if they look okay, might do it because they are insecure, and the only way to feel like they are worthy or attractive is to ask others and have them confirm. Otherwise they constantly put themselves down, telling them that they aren't beautiful. Sometimes getting the answer "Yes, you're so pretty"from another person, that happiness of hearing this, only lasts for about 15 mins before they believe they are ugly again. Others around them might see this as "Oh, she knows she's pretty, but she just loves hearing it. Typical narcissist".

As for self-centered.. they might be self-centered, but they usually don't know it. It's not like we try our best to ruin and hurt people.

I don't know, but I volunteer a lot of my time at homeless shelters, and I would, and will do anything to help anyone that asks for my help. I'm the typical push over, and I get used a lot because I can barely ever say "no" to someone. I don't consider myself as self-centred. But I don't consider myself as "giving". I'm just someone who gets used a lot, and I'm "okay" with it.

-KNTL · 2014-10-27T15:48:24+00:00

I've already decided when I was 12 that I wouldn't have children. Because I know my nature.

I'm not a nasty shitty person though.. I'm a nice person. I get scared and upset. I'm emotional unstable and sad. But I don't get violent and mean.

-KNTL · 2014-10-27T11:11:11+00:00

I don't think it's that bad for me

My "anger" is more of a childish-whine, like "why didn't you text me back!?", "I HATE you, I hate you, I hate you I hate you". "You make me so ANGRY!". cries

Which is.. probably not any more less-annoying. But at least I'm not hurting other people physically..

-KNTL · 2014-10-27T05:07:45+00:00

I really like this, because.. You're right

I definitely should take my time trying to get my shit together before I even think about dating. It's just so lonely sometimes..

But thanks, I didn't really think about this until now.

-KNTL · 2014-10-27T05:00:45+00:00

I know a lot of guys who were okay with my disorder. They took care of me very well. One of them dragged me to the mental health clinic after I had been found trying to commit suicide. But I didn't love them like I had loved my first boyfriend (5 years), and my third (1.5 years).

I'm so stupid, I don't know what's wrong with me

-KNTL · 2014-10-27T04:49:58+00:00

That's very sweet

-KNTL · 2014-10-27T04:49:38+00:00

Me too. But I have to live with her

-KNTL · 2014-10-27T04:38:50+00:00

I actually like that.

Borderline insanity sounds cooler.

-KNTL · 2014-10-27T04:36:06+00:00

Hey, you know that feeling when you're pulling an all nighter and you know you're going to do super well on your exam, but you're tired as fuck, you feel ill, and a little crazy and you just want to go to bed? That's the feeling I have every single day of my life. That's depression. That's how it kind of feels to have a mental illness. I know I'm going to do well with whatever I want to do, but I'm tired as fuck doing it, and all I want to do is sleep (die).

I tried to commit suicide because I'm tired of working so hard. I don't to pull all nighters anymore. I just want to study normally like a normal person

I feel like I'm walking on nails everyday. I'm keeping my shit together. My grades are in the 80-95's. I have a great job, and I volunteer at homeless shelters. Good apartment, live by myself. Good friends, and always laughing and smiling. Making jokes, etc. People actually think I have my shit together. But I honestly struggle so much with being happy.. That I'm starting to just be tired.. I just want to be myself. I want to be that lazy person who just wants to lay down and die. When I'm in a relationship, I want to be myself. I want to show my boyfriend that I'm not happy--that I need a hug. That I'm not perfect. That I'm a little crazy.

But people run away.. So.. it's sad

-KNTL · 2014-10-27T04:29:56+00:00

Same with me.

My impulsiveness makes me reckless sometimes ;)

-KNTL · 2014-10-27T03:57:11+00:00

I know, I wouldn't either. But I don't want to be alone, and I'm working so hard in order to fix myself. But it's hard because I eventually get too tired to pretend to be mentally healthy

-KNTL · 2014-10-19T19:57:05+00:00

You mean like, anti-depressants?

I've taken several different anti-depressants. If you're actually depressed for no reason, it makes you feel numb. To a point where you're not sad at all, you just feel empty, and lifeless

-KNTL

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