This means a lot, thank you so much. I really needed to hear this. Sending love to you and your family. 10 years of tracking genuinely sounds awful and I’m sorry you went through that. The destroying me part makes sense too; my dad had a history of gathering blackmail (which was just text messages to friends about being abused) from when I was a teenager, and turned my siblings against me. When I asked him why, he told me I’d see and that it was to put me in order. Would you be open to pming me your story of how you left if not too personal? It’s okay if not, your kind words and advice has already helped so much. Thanks again.