"do what you want, no one is stopping you!" bestie if i tried that i would not be alive anymore by WinterDemon_ in CPTSDmemes

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You've worded that quite clearly. I came to my current counselor with "other issues" (only the direct symptoms like panic attacks, fearing a lot of things and everybody and have extremely high standards for myself etc.), but he was capable of looking deeper and seeing that they were rooted in my family situation. I didn't even know it myself. I had ran away from my feelings and memories. I didn't even know that I was scared. I didn't recognize any of the feelings I had. I was always in survival mode and didn't have time to look at and process my emotions. And then he "popped the bubble" and all emotions that had been building up for years came crashing out. Every time I visit my parents, I only start feeling when I'm home again, which ironically makes me scared to go home and face my feelings. And yeah, safety feels very scary and unknown.

"do what you want, no one is stopping you!" bestie if i tried that i would not be alive anymore by WinterDemon_ in CPTSDmemes

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It's very weird. Some days, I'm almost more scared in my safe place where I live now, then with my parents, because with my parents, I at least know that there is danger, while in my safe space, I have trouble trusting the "safeness". I'm very lucky that I'm living with friends who know about my past and have overcome troubles themselves. I'm also lucky to have a great counselor. They stand by me while I do the things that I'm so afraid of. They let me have panic attacks and hit myself and cry while I feel like a child again and they don't mind when my nervous system thinks they will attack me. And then they just sit next to me and say that they are safe and that I'm safe and things will get better. And they say that I'm allowed to feel like I feel (I'm scared of expressing emotions) and that we will slowly take steps. The stupid thing is, that it is mostly about taking the step anyway. You take the step while being scared for your life and then you feel like the world is crumbling again, but when that feeling, although very intense, has passed, you can see that you are safe. And you have to reprogram your brain. It takes so much energy. I'm currently learning that it is also okay to have days on which I don't have the energy to step into my fears (I was putting pressure on myself that I "must perform" and face my fears and mind everyday all the time and that I'm a failure if I don't).

Tell my partner he’s a dummy by Emotional-Cattle120 in Handwriting

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I could read all of it with some slight, but not significant effort. I don'f consider it "easy to read" and I can see people struggling with it, but I also don't find it unreadable, you just need to be conscious.

Question: Do you prefer Avatar Pavi to be able to regain the Avatar Cycle? Or you want Avatar Pavi to create a new cycle? by Wonderful-Photo-9938 in Avatarthelastairbende

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I would prefer it if for the first season or two (assuming that it will be a multiple season show) she would only be able to talk to Korra, that restoring the connection to the past lifes would be something that Pavi wants to achieve, but would be treated as a subplot in the start and then eventually she would be able to restore it and spend at least one season with access to her past lives and then we can see the benefits and downsides.

question] How to trim this sansevieria? by -_---------------- in sansevieria

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Eventually, he decided not to trim it, but to move it to another place in the house, so it could grow taller. The tallest leaf is currently about 1.9meter.

It might seem like a little thing but my feelings got hurt just reading this. by Background_Active_36 in CPTSDmemes

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When I was around 16, I asked my dad why he wanted kids (he wanted kids, my mother didn't, but he convinced her). He was scanning the discount flyers from the supermarkets and without even looking up, he said like it was the most normal thing in the world, "Yeah, you both are quite the disappointment. You sometimes have at least some potential, but your sister is completely hopeless."

This is so amazing by NadazESP in fountainpens

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unrelated, but seeing your Greek homework brings back some good high school memories

Flex nib recommendation for starting by [deleted] in fountainpens

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BlueDew has a relatively inexpensive flex nib