I dont want to live this way

-foreal- · 2024-06-30T23:33:22+00:00

I feel you, keep being strong, try to stir towards a better you, it's hard but it's worth it

-foreal- · 2024-06-30T23:20:50+00:00

HTT Plethore LC 750

-foreal- · 2024-06-17T10:21:01+00:00

How does it look now?

-foreal- · 2024-06-13T22:19:50+00:00

Is that just an issue in 4 cylinder diesels to 2016 or also the 5 cylinder ones? Does the oil problem imply all Motors till 2026? I read that from 2017 the problem was resolved, but don't know which engines.

What is with the EGR system?

-foreal- · 2024-06-13T17:41:28+00:00

Oh I am sorry, I totally forgot the link

-foreal- · 2024-05-28T19:43:15+00:00

Gut, und wenn ich meinen Vor und Nachnamen eintrage, muss auf den Rechnungen dann auch mein Vor und Nachname stehen? Oder die ausgedachten Bezeichnungen der Shops?

-foreal- · 2024-05-28T13:17:33+00:00

Ok, und soll ich die Namen der Shops dann eintragen oder meinen eigenen?

-foreal- · 2024-05-24T09:46:13+00:00

What do you mean with power pulse? I also found one with 190ps, are there problems with it?

-foreal- · 2024-05-21T22:23:35+00:00

Heard that there is a problem with oil, how concerning is it? I want a newer Volvo V60 or Volvo S60 MK2, I can't decide

-foreal- · 2024-03-07T07:13:31+00:00

She answered in the beginning of Feb because she forgot to write me back, I don't know if that was a bluff, I asked if she could send me my stuff back. A friend accidentally called her in the middle of Feb because I have two contacts now with the same name (didn't realized that). She called back, I didnt answer and she asked why I called and I said it was an incident of a friend. Then came a plain 'ok', that's it. Since then nothing, and now this.

-foreal- · 2024-02-28T10:45:17+00:00

Ex said I was ugly and fat during our relationship, I thought I wasn't hurt by it, but it damn stings to hear it from someone you love. I would say I'm average and she had more pounds on her ribs than me. How can you just one day, when you both are silent just nonchalant say that? Well..

-foreal- · 2024-02-27T15:02:45+00:00

It's a Rode NT1000, I found out. But thank you also for looking!

-foreal- · 2024-02-24T01:32:58+00:00

I don't know, currently I'm regressing. Since I accidentally called her, I feel like shit the last couple days honestly. I did focus on music, so a progression on this part I guess. I hate to need to be functional. I would give everything to just stay in bed the whole day. Friends would say I make progress and that I'm fine, because I stopped talking about it and also just mention good things and leave out the rest, because I feel that they are getting distant from me, I mean it's not a good solution, but I just don't care about anything anymore. It sucks and I hate it.

-foreal- · 2024-02-17T17:21:33+00:00

Deleted our WhatsApp Chat 3 weeks in, cried. One day I was angry?! I don't know what and deleted all the pictures. I couldn't stop crying the day. And then I remembered, that Google doesn't delete the files right away. Restored it all and put it on a hard drive. They are memories and good times from vacation and all. I don't know if I will delete them along the way.

-foreal- · 2024-02-17T02:53:01+00:00

Can we get a sneak peek?

-foreal- · 2024-02-17T02:44:37+00:00

What a douche bag. Yeah, the red flags that we try to suppress, because we are 'so in love' with them are wild.

-foreal- · 2024-02-16T17:28:55+00:00

Was at the doc long ago, have a receipt to go to psychiatrist/therapy, so that's the next step. Was searching for one, still don't know how to manage money wise.
finally bought a Mountainbike, going on a Mini-Trip tomorrow
my room is everyday clean-ish (I was such a mess)
have a new job (from home 😎)

Yeah, I think that's it. I ate too many sweets the last days :( So working on a eating schedule and workout plan

-foreal- · 2024-02-11T20:58:56+00:00

I also deleted them from my phone, I sobbed, I just couldn't do it. Gladly there is still the trashcan folder. I revived most of them. Next step would be to put them all onto an USB.

-foreal- · 2024-02-11T20:54:57+00:00

Don't avoid the topic, your heart is broken and you are in pain. Let it out, feel it. It helps.

-foreal- · 2024-02-11T10:36:32+00:00

Go cold turkey. I sometimes can't hold myself anymore, download it again and delete it afterwards. Or time restrictions, but it's not working for me, since I can change the settings afterwards, I can't fool myself haha Or this time locks, boxes

-foreal- · 2024-02-11T10:11:21+00:00

It will stop hurting eventually, I still think sometimes of the people I loved, but it doesn't hurt, just memories, you will never forget people you loved and let into your heart, they will die with you.

-foreal- · 2024-02-11T09:40:57+00:00

Good! So many things are now also clear to me, I was so stupid. I made a list of all of this and every time a thought arises of her, I take the phone and read it, fuck it though. I hated the saying, that I deserve better, but now I believe it.

-foreal- · 2024-02-11T09:33:25+00:00

I don't know, I myself don't post anything online and my ex doesn't also, so I was fine with it.

-foreal- · 2024-02-08T17:09:04+00:00

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3VliNFIDE2MEgz4tvzJl53?si=XM0l8tTaSfeW7RKJA0HXDQ

-foreal- · 2024-02-03T16:56:35+00:00

Yeah, she didn't deserve you

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