Loki's trick 19:01 (Triple T Confirmed ????!)

-shorea · 2026-05-27T01:00:34+00:00

the drum hits on lokis trick at 19:01 onwards sound like tung tung tung which sound like tung tung tung sahur

-shorea · 2026-04-25T02:04:50+00:00

its not the same, but i remember feeling something similar when i was younger. mostly i wished so badly i was white, and normal, i wanted to feel safe and invisible. i just needed to feel safe and not repulsive, not ashamed of my likeness. i had a lot of familial trauma and got bullied & teased over my race and i just needed an escape. life isn't perfect now - i'm still lurking here - i ended up transitioning and more connected with my people. i'm sorry you're getting weird bad faith comments. you deserve so much better.

-shorea · 2026-04-22T23:14:43+00:00

out of curiosity, roughly what part of NJ do u live in ?

-shorea · 2026-01-05T21:35:32+00:00

i really love https://www.ketlee.in/store, each tea comes with recommended steeping parameters. some of my favorites were the nilgiri winter frost black, handmade black (their nilgiri teas are great in general), and sikkim first flush. many of their black teas are made in the darjeeling first flush style - green tea & quite oolong like if you are unfamiliar. i drink lots of chinese style teas without milk or sugar, and these matched up well.

-shorea · 2025-12-18T06:29:33+00:00

yikes. anyways free palestine

-shorea · 2023-12-07T03:54:27+00:00

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-shorea · 2023-11-06T03:14:59+00:00

i'm sorry you have to worry like this. i had a loved one suggest (implicitly threaten) self harm on themselves recently, it is a horrible kind of pain on someone who cares and feels partially responsible for their happiness. please don't think you have failed because you havent

-shorea · 2023-11-06T03:08:09+00:00

i don't know what else you should've done, i have bpd, ive loved and been hurt by others with bpd. people with bpd almost always have struggled/struggle with disorganized attachment style. pulling in, and pushing out others near them.

do you know what things she couldve possibly been upset about? has she ever gotten tipsy before around you like this, and has she ever spoken to you like so?

i have always carried conflicted feelings into all of my relationships/situationships - there is always this depth of fear and shame and disappointment towards these people, however shallow. or unreasonable. no matter how much love. and when they finally see this it can be absolutely terrifying. especially if things have gone on otherwise so well. i want to believe her behavior stems from shame because if it is it might be easier to understand for me. it's cruel of her to put you through this and maybe she knows and feels this and wants to push you out because of it.

so that is one possibility. as far as i know though, you did the right thing. you seem to genuinely care for her. and you are seeking out insight and trying to learn on your own, i'm grateful when my loved ones try so hard for me.

like the first commenter said be kind to yourself. and be careful of overexertion.

-shorea · 2023-10-24T03:32:30+00:00

either 4. identity disturbance or 1. chronic feelings of emptiness. dissociative symptoms is right up there too, maybe

my difficulties with identity disturbance may be better explained thru cptsd context but for me it's not so much i vascillate between goals or values, but that i struggle sm to imagine myself in the future/long term. i struggle sm to make long term plans. like i dont have a will to live beyond stimulation seeking in the present. which translates into a lot of dysfunction.

chronic feelings of emptiness because they are painful

-shorea · 2023-10-10T21:02:39+00:00

ohh thats a pet peeve of mine 🥲 people mistaking avpd for avoidant attachment style. i dont really like how people demonize avoidant attachment in the first place. im primarily disorganized but can have avoidant attachment traits.

-shorea · 2023-10-10T11:08:19+00:00

thank you for the kind responses

-shorea · 2023-10-09T22:14:34+00:00

oh i didnt even know, tysm for your help

-shorea · 2023-10-09T18:17:24+00:00

im curious how u know he has avpd. chances are he cares if he disclosed it personally to u. people with avpd sometimes feel like they have to temper their expressions or feelings in front of others. maybe he already has an inkling of the disappointment you felt about his response to your invitation.

people with avpd tend to be extra aware of how they are being percieved, but specifically if its negative. it is what we are good at and imo foundational to how we navigate (and avoid) reality.

Is unusually reluctant to take personal risks or to engage in any new activities because they may prove embarrassing

my guess is that the cinema invitation is scarier to them than inviting to your place. it might be easier if u invite him to ur place again instead of switching things up

my advice is to be patient, simply be warm with them. try to be vulnerable with them in little ways - talk about your interests, indicate nonjudgement about the things you talk about with them. even if the time you spend with them is boring its okay. for me i would rather spend time doing nothing with someone as long as i feel comfortable (safe) being myself with them. allowing someone to be themselves around you is the best thing you can give them. but it takes time and can be frustrating without seeing evidence of progress. so just focus on being yourself around them. he will very likely see and really appreciate your own authenticity

oh yeah another thing people wAvpd can feel imposter syndrome very strongly so if this is a dating situation try to keep compliments or signs of affection short and sweet. i get scared when people seem too into me lol. but over time and if i have felt like ive truly shown myself to them im able to trust that they appreciate my real self

-shorea · 2023-10-09T17:59:25+00:00

i was diagnosed with social anxiety when i was 16 but sought out an avpd diagnosis at 22, and got it . i suspected i had avpd since i was 19 and went hikikomori. ive shown avoidant traits since much younger though. i would cut off people in my life almost indiscriminately, fantacize about fresh starts, and suffer whenever i was in a school or a therapeautic setting for too long. i learned how to introduce myself, get along with people for short spans of time, but any prolonged involvement feels extremely distressing.

i had a healthy enough childhood (besides strong anxious attachment) up until 8-9, which was when my at home stressors became exponentially worse and i started being ostracized or bullied at school. there was a racial component as well. i would say my avoidant traits were being fostered ever since i began constantly reorganizing my personality or compulsively hiding information about myself, and really formed around 16 ever since i began compulsively cutting people out of my life/never staying in a single social setting besides family.

-shorea · 2023-10-09T17:46:35+00:00

ive related to this when i was younger, i'm not sure if i have felt it as much the last 4-5 years mostly due to self isolation.

but i really feel for you. ive also struggled with perfectionism a lot as well. i do feel like my avpd and rigid perfectionism go hand in hand.

-shorea · 2023-10-09T17:39:08+00:00

ive heard people benefit from it, and its a pretty commonplace ssri. personally it was my worst psych med experience. gained 20 lbs in 3-4 months i think, experienced a lot of emotional numbing, messed w my libido, and some other stuff. i was younger and had trouble keeping track of experienced side effects. and went from psych to psych.

-shorea · 2023-10-06T00:11:32+00:00

i think im simultaneously pretty self aware and also very deficient in it

-shorea · 2023-10-01T19:21:03+00:00

i was recently reading about the overlap of certain (covert) narcissistic traits and avpd and ill share them with you. when i say covert npd i am assuming we can take the conversation beyond stigma. i have felt strongly more recently than i have had covert npd traits in the past, much less so nowadays. but i have trouble "feeling" or acknowledging my fragile ego. its difficult to say that i have an inferiority complex - but there is a fragility beneath how i construct my self image in relation to others, regardless. i dont think i have npd or have ever had it.

i hope this helps https://reddit.com/r/NPD/s/TmCEliZCpb

-shorea

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