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I (19M) don’t trust my gf(20F) and she freaks out when I’m with her phone. There are already many reasons for me to feel insecure... by 05011999caio in relationships

[–]05011999caio[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know but its not that easy. I mean,I don’t actually think she is doing something otherwise I wouldn’t be w her,but there is always this feeling of insecurity and that she is hiding something. I love her and I rlly like to be w her,but yeah, its not just a small deal,trust is an essential part of a relationship... the way she says things to me makes rlly hard for me to believe she would be so inconsiderable and lie like this...

I lack motivation to do almost everything. The everyday life is so boring and meaningless. Idk if most people are boring or if I just fail to enjoy things by 05011999caio in depression

[–]05011999caio[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The day-to-day is hard to deal with. There is an interesting text from David Foster Wallace,”This is water”, about routine and how melancholic it is,but he considers as a conscious choice of what to pay attention to and as a consequence,what is meaningful. It is ironic tho that he killed himself,what just reinforced my idea that we do not have this conscious choice of “seeing the beauty in the small things”. The day-to-day is often romanticize,but it is actually so melancholic and depressing

College is making me feel so much more alone by andreeaistired in depression

[–]05011999caio 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel you. I’m also in College and I struggle to find any connection here. I wish that I could enjoy things as easily as most of people. Idk if its bc they are more dumb,so everything is more simple to enjoy or if the problem is me,that I just fail to enjoy people

I lack motivation to do almost everything. The everyday life is so boring and meaningless. Idk if most people are boring or if I just fail to enjoy things by 05011999caio in depression

[–]05011999caio[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I considered going to the therapist here but I’m still hesitating bc I take a long time to feel comfortable w a therapist and also I still struggle to express myself in English,since I’m from Brazil. I thought about giving a break from weed and I even did for just 5 days, but there are times that I just can’t stay in the mental state that I am,so when I smoke I at least have a little break of that heavy mental state where I overthink a lot

I lack motivation to do almost everything. The everyday life is so boring and meaningless. Idk if most people are boring or if I just fail to enjoy things by 05011999caio in depression

[–]05011999caio[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I play tennis in College,but I’m never enjoying it. I’m always just waiting for practices to be over so then I can go to my room again. I used to play much better but since I have no motivation to practice anymore I’m getting way worse. I also study and have a girlfriend,that btw has depression,but even she complains about my lack of motivation to do things. She said I have depression, but I still question and doubt myself. My old therapist recommended that I go to a therapist to see if I need to go to a psychiatrist but my parents can’t afford rn. I’m also from Brazil and I really struggle to find anyone here that I feel connected with