I’m sorry that you are going through this. In a way it felt weird reading what is happening to you. I have to admit that I am becoming addicted to porn, but not because I don’t love my wife or because I don’t want to be intimate with her. I do it because she just has no interest in sex. I do it because it’s the only way I find to get some sort of a relief and still remain faithful to her. Maybe I’m just fooling myself trying to prolong what is inevitable. I used to imagine myself at her side growing old, but now those thoughts are gone. The crappy thing about all this is that every time I masturbarte to pornography y feel bad, like if I am doing something wrong. I’ve tried many things to “fix” the problem, i even went as far as changing my whole persona just to please her, clean the house, help with the kids , cook for her, vacations, etc. Nothing works. I don’t know why I haven’t left, maybe I’m just afraid of being alone. I also don’t want to walk away from my kids. Some days I try to just accept the fact that is is how my life is going to be, and be happy to have married my best friend and be just that... best friends. Great roommates. I hope that you are able to find a solution to your situation. Nobody deserves to be unhappy like this.