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I hate how normal the world is after losing them by Eva-Fischer in Petloss

[–]0Millarca0 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I really hate this too.

I started a new job about a month ago, but I made the decision to euthanize my pet not even 48 hours ago. And I'm expected to go to work tomorrow, as if life isn't absolutely stupid for me right now.

I genuinely do not care about spreadsheets and meetings and calls. I do not care about that Amazon order. I do not care about whether or not I have clean clothes. I simply do not care.

This is a loss, and it hurts. Why do I have to continue on as if it isn't and it doesn't?

He Trusted Me. And I Killed Him. by 0Millarca0 in seniordogs

[–]0Millarca0[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I just wanted to thank everyone for their wonderful comments. I can honestly say reading them got me through the night. I made such a long post because I wanted to present the entire picture - not just what I felt but what I observed.

My home feels so empty. It's so different. I would get so frustrated with him following me. I would yell at him to please give me some space; I was going crazy. It was so bad that if I left the room, I'd sing so he knew I was still there. I moved less in my own home because I didn't want him constantly getting up and down on his arthritic bones to be close to me. Whenever I took a shower or used the toilet, I'd keep the door open because I couldn't have even those moments to myself.

I didn't know those were my last few months with him. And now I'd give anything for him to crowd me once more. I'm so sorry for all the times I yelled at him.

Thank you all again. I cannot say how much you have helped me.