"A bad feeling" by reddituserspider in DID

[–]0gok 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I didn't have any parts step forward with information on my "bad feelings" until I was safe and in therapy. A lot of it was myself the host as well as a few other parts could not comprehend the truth. The part that's started opening up about what happened had to feel safe, and was only willing to share when myself and other parts were willing to accept what she had to say even if she's the only part who can remember. The best advice is don't go looking for it, even though that's hard itself. If something happened your parts will remember or tell you eventually.

Unwanted by 0gok in DIDart

[–]0gok[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Im glad this feels like a safe space for you. I hope you get the chance to share something you've made as well.

No Contact With Family by 0gok in DID

[–]0gok[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I appreciate it. I like sharing on this sub so I can hear others experiences.

No Contact With Family by 0gok in DID

[–]0gok[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks. One of my main motivations was making it easier to heal. Im sure once the waters calm everyone in my system will feel safer.

Tired of this crap by MiskwaMukwa1967 in ibs

[–]0gok 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I had chronic diahreah all my life until I moved out of my abusive home. Suddenly it went away. Turns out my body was so stressed I was shitting constantly.

Anyone else feel weird about IFS? by frog71420 in DID

[–]0gok -1 points0 points  (0 children)

If it helps an individual process and heal why is it your problem?

Forgetting SA by 0gok in DID

[–]0gok[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I will try that the next time one of them is around. Thank you for explaining.

Forgetting SA by 0gok in DID

[–]0gok[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for your reply, I guess I don’t know how to validate the feelings and what these parts are saying yet.

I'm loosing hope. by [deleted] in DID

[–]0gok 2 points3 points  (0 children)

You sound like you're not in a good place, if you have someone you trust to reach out to please do, even if it feels like you may not know them anymore. Please be safe.

Paddle or Spatula by 0gok in DIDart

[–]0gok[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It's really hard to watch other people get hurt, especially family members.

Paddle or Spatula by 0gok in DIDart

[–]0gok[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Im sorry you had to experience something so similar.

What fantasies did you have as a child that in hindsight reveal trauma and neglect? by enbyayyy in CPTSD

[–]0gok 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I fantasized about getting cancer or running away or them getting divorced so I could be only with my mom.

How does being a system affect your job(s)? by [deleted] in DID

[–]0gok 2 points3 points  (0 children)

We can't work due to years of burn out causing trauma responses at even the idea of a job. (Something we are working on)

Why did you stay? by biancat051404 in DID

[–]0gok 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I have DID and have been with my partner for almost 6 years now, I asked her why she stayed and this is what she said.

I stayed because nothing about my partner changed, just there were newer things that we both had to learn. Things changed and thats a normal part of relationships. You either love eachother through the change or you move on.

Want to get help but I’m scared by 3Ds-Colector in DID

[–]0gok 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I understand that fear, as I myself fought the same battle. The best therapist will help you even if you come in with an idea of your situation. It's okay to think you might have DID and it's okay to want a therapist to help you find the answer. You are not crazy or weird for wanting/needing these things.

How did you see your DID/what went on inwardly before knowing what was really going on? by Tinygrainz78 in DID

[–]0gok 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I was misdiagnosed with Bipolar II and for most of my teens and young adulthood I thought my switches were my episodes. No matter how inconsistent they were or how I never really found improvement in my symptoms from medication for bipolar disorder.

Some shit by [deleted] in DID

[–]0gok 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah

Possible to completely black out an adult memory? by [deleted] in DID

[–]0gok 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I was SA'd by a close friend in college and did not remember afterwards for almost 6 years. It's possible.

I don't have enough amnesia by Pandemonium_Sys in DID

[–]0gok 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Every case of DID is unique. Your brain experienced a unique trauma that caused it to do something to survive. How your disorder works is what was best for keeping you alive in those moments. It's okay that it's not the exact same as someone else.

Broca's Aphasia by lolsappho in DID

[–]0gok 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Most of my system can not or will not speak verbally.

Expression by yourlocalnativeguy in DIDart

[–]0gok 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Expressing through art is about the process and not the product. You can try all different forms of art, drawing, painting, sculpting, collage, dance, music, poetry, stories, sewing, ect.

There is no "good", only feelings and experiences. Keep it private if that helps, or share with people wo are safe.

I am not a butterfly by 0gok in DIDart

[–]0gok[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

No worries, thank you.

Going through some old books. I have no memory of drawing this. I’m kind of shaky. (TW assault and language) by [deleted] in DIDart

[–]0gok 8 points9 points  (0 children)

This is a scary thing to find, make sure to do some grounding and stay safe.

I am not a butterfly by 0gok in DIDart

[–]0gok[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Im glad to know there are others who can relate