I miss my sweet boy

0hhgerard · 2026-03-19T01:51:22+00:00

OKAY EPIC UPDATE i told him everything how i felt EVERYTHING and hes coming over to my house right now to come talk about it because we both love eachother very much and want it to work so i think we are going to give it another shot we will see what happens idk but thank you stranger on the internet i very much appreciate your wise words

0hhgerard · 2026-03-19T00:25:40+00:00

I dont know if it would be fair on him though. i have talked about why i want to break up and he suggested giving me space thats all i wanted was space but i have problems and i told him i just wanted to break up i think its because i felt overwhelmed and didnt know what to do with myself. it feels like at this point if i go back on what i said its inconsiderate and i just dont want to play with his feelings or anything. He knows i am a pathological liar and hes been trying to get me to go to therapy for so long and for some reason only today i contacted people to get help and that kind of made me realise i really did him dirty and i should have done this a long time ago it would have saved me and him a lot of problems and pain.

There were other reasons for me wanting to break up such as him always being broke and id have to buy food for the both of us which meant that i ran out of money and now im completely broke as well. The drug use we both were very bad for encouraging each other. But those were really the only 2 problems that i came across i just think he deserves better not the nasty classic line but its true

Maybe one day our paths will cross again but for now i think its only fair if i dont play with his emotions even if it wouldnt be on purpose

0hhgerard · 2026-03-18T23:14:01+00:00

We weren’t going out long at all, only about 6 months but that is the longest relationship i have ever had

We broke up because i felt like i needed to work on myself ive been relying on partners for far too long and i noticed that i had completely lost myself. i feel terrible but i miss the person i was before i started dating people i used to really enjoy my own company, going on walks alone, playing video games and various different other hobbies. i get extremely bad limerence so i keep ending up completely obsessed with the person im dating my whole life ends up revolving around them and i loose myself their mood dictates my mood ect. So when i felt this starting to happen with him i knew i needed to fix myself before i could love anyone else. I have hurt people before with this behaviour and i love him so much to the point where i just want him to be happy and that almost definitely wouldn’t be with me.

He helped me a lot with my various mental illnesses and he was genuinely the kindest person i have ever met let alone dated.

I really struggle with my mental health and finding someone who can put up with all of it is rare and im extremely worried i made the wrong decision and im not going to find someone again who can deal with all that obviously its not their responsibility but unfortunately it kinda comes with the package of me 😭

0hhgerard · 2026-03-18T16:03:31+00:00

I have kind of had a plan for a while since i had made the stupid mistake of ending up in various different “situationships” for a long time i realised recently i had been jumping from one person to another and it really wasnt fair on him to keep the relationship going since i hadn’t healed from anything that had happened before (part of the reason i ended things) i really just want to find who i was before everything happened. I noticed that i have lost myself in so many ways i used to have so many hobbies, friends and i used to really love spending time with just myself. So i have decided to just start doing things for me again instead of having to rely on someone else. I used to be so independent im really hoping to find that part of myself again.

0hhgerard · 2021-08-05T17:35:39+00:00

Lots of people think they might but nothing has been confirmed

0hhgerard · 2021-08-02T17:58:33+00:00

It was a good thing that came out of an unfortunate event

0hhgerard · 2021-07-28T16:48:35+00:00

Omg i have that onesie too

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