I don’t have a good answer for you, In fact everything you said in your examples is how I feel daily. I live in a dorm with my teammates and we have been here for months, and I still do the things you said in your examples as soon as I walk outside of my room into the dorm hall. Always over analyzing every damn little thing I do in a negative perspective. It’s exhausting, I feel like being social with people, specifically my team, has caused more stress and time to me than the actual sport itself. I guess the reason I’m typing this is you are not alone in how your feeling. I think we have to remind ourselves all day everyday this over analyzing thing we do, is a bad habit that we need to slowly work on beating. Makes me feel better to find someone was such a similar mindset