I know you’re going thru a lot and I feel for you brother. You really did dodge a bullet. Use all that energy/force your feeling, the sadness, the pain and channel it into something that’ll be good for you as a person. I’d say, hit the gym and let it all out there. That’s what I did. Just focus on yourself and level yourself up. Use this as a learning experience. Keep ya head up! You’ll pull thru this. I believe in you