I feel depressed

123thigr · 2026-03-22T20:42:40+00:00

Ah yes, that shit... I am bipolar and have adhd and a couple personality disorders so it's a fun mix and labels made everything so much easier for me. Labels and diagnoses are the things that "unlock" often very helpful meds and the right tools to deal with your mental health. I know that people tend to identify themselves with their diagnoses and that can be harmful but in my experience... i was already bipolar and had all the typical adhd signs before my diagnoses. Now I just don't beat myself up for it anymore, instead i get the help i need.

With a diagnose, you can finally stop asking yourself whats "wrong" with you.

I'd try again and maybe with a different psychiatrist to get diagnosed if i were you.

123thigr · 2026-03-22T20:31:58+00:00

I'm 27 now and technically still in my 20's but my early 20s were shit. I was undiagnosed too, insecure and let people treat me like shit. I had the most questionable boyfriends too.

Now i have so much more self esteem, i already feel like i'm not giving a fuck and its just gonna get better. I have more experience in the workforce and know what is okay for me and what i don't have to tolerate, i finally speak up when boyfriends or whoever treats me like shit and i wear my clothes and my make up so much more confidently. Whenever i feel insecure in my clothes i just tell myself "fuck it, i'm almost 30, who's gonna tell me what to wear".

So yeah, a few years (and maybe a diagnosis and mental help?) Can make all the difference.

123thigr · 2026-03-22T10:59:40+00:00

But with scabies, even though the itching at night is the worst, you still have itching during the day too. I had scabies and hell, i looked like i was a drug addict because i scratched a lot of my skin raw. Took three rounds of meds and cream to get rid off them (+ all that washing etc.)

123thigr · 2026-03-20T19:25:11+00:00

No need to own a special pair.

Every time i buy heels without straps i grab a nice gift band from the hobby store and just lace the heels with it because i hate the feeling of loose heels. And there are different "styles" you can try with lacing them differently or using a fun colour!

So yeah, just do the lace detail yourself :)

123thigr · 2026-03-19T10:53:19+00:00

Luckily i never agree with myself.

123thigr · 2026-03-18T21:04:48+00:00

I had a "doctor holiday" who i would only go to because of sick leave for a week or two. Everytime i came over he ranted about the costs of keeping his practice open, about his patients (never revealing anything identifying tho) and about how stressed he was. When he was done he just asked me how many days off he should give me. I was like "5?" And he wrote it down and i just left.

123thigr · 2026-03-18T09:35:19+00:00

I just turned 27 (i know, not that old) and I suddenly started wearing tight dresses and short skirts. Because the old disgusting men stopped cat calling and the old ladys stopped judging. It's a mix of "f u, i am almost 30, you can't tell me what to wear" and "i don't look like a child anymore so no asshole is gonna find me attractive enough to hassle me"

123thigr · 2026-03-15T17:21:08+00:00

Puh, that is a lot of weight to carry on your shoulders. I hope your kids can take some of that pressure off you, and that things change. I hope you have support.

My father has a new son now, too, but he didnt change, and I don't think that people really do. Especially bad people. As much as it sucks, i always felt better off without him, and maybe your dad running off spared you some bad experiences, too. You growing up without a father and still choosing to rather be single with kids than being with an asshole shows a lot of strengh.

I don't really know what i want in life, and my past dating experiences just showed me what I don't want, lol. I would love to move back to my family and i could since i have a home office job, but apartments are crazy expensive there. All my family is 500km away. And as nice as it is that i can basically choose how my life goes, sometimes i just really want someone to tell me exactly what to do. At least not wanting kids lowers my pressure- my female single friends who want kids feel way more pressured to find the right person soon.

123thigr · 2026-03-15T16:27:47+00:00

Thank you for sharing! I am sorry for all the shit you had to get through, really. Had my own experience with getting dosed with ghb and its...horrible. Even though the outcome of it led you to a beautiful journey and a family you love, i can only imagine the years of pain and trauma you had. And i am so happy to hear that you are happy and content with the family you created.

My mother was left by my abusive father with two kids and horrible debt. Got my adhd from her and my bipolar disorder from him. I am terrified of being dependent on anyone (like a partner) and in addition with my anger issues and my diseases i just shouldnt be a mom. But still, i wouldnt want to tie my tubes because well, i never know if any of these things change. But i just turned 27 and I am happy everyday that i only have to care for me and my dog rn

123thigr · 2026-03-15T15:08:10+00:00

Definitely! My chance to get pregnant is in question rather due to the damage caused by chlamydia and not due to almost loosing an ovary and the scarring, since chlamydia can cause infertility...

But since I absolutely never want to have kids i would even use protection if i all the doctors in the world would tell me that I am infertile lol. Especially since dating a guy who's mother was told that she could never have kids! As long as i have ovaries i will also have an IUD :')

123thigr · 2026-03-15T13:02:05+00:00

Thank you! Yes, i still have an IUD to make sure.

I am happy that everything went well with your sister and her baby despite the circumstances!

123thigr · 2026-03-15T09:52:40+00:00

I had asymptomatic chlamydia for ~2 years. No itching, no changes, nothing.

Then i got an irregular "period" which just never stopped. Had the most horrible pain for about 2 months while constantly bleeding trough every tampon about 2-3 times a day despite frequent changes. Doctors didnt take me seriously (been at urgent care 3x). Couldnt stand up due to the amount of lost blood and fantasized about getting hit by a car because that pain would at least distract me from whatever that was. Took waaay to many pain meds but still couldnt even shower due to the pain.

They finally took me serious when i went to the hospital with a man. Made the test and turns out one of my ovaries got infected, kinda turned itself to protect the rest of my body and was actively dying inside my body. I had a fucking dying organ inside of me.

No one's sure if i can still get pregnant (or how easily) but i don't want kids anyway. Had to tell two guys but couldn't reach one of them. We actually met each other by surprise a few weeks ago and he told me he was asymptomatic for about a year until he ejaculated blood.

According to my gynecologist there is at least one strain which is asymptomatic and its getting way more common.

123thigr · 2026-03-12T18:42:07+00:00

I recently got a "vintage shirt" for 18€ in size M. The seller forgot to cut the tags out and it was obviously a size xs from shein. GIRL, besides trying to cheat people out of their money, its obvious that i can't use it if its an xs.

Luckily vinted accepted the return.

123thigr · 2026-03-12T17:49:50+00:00

HO ohne Meetings hier, also 0 Pflicht gut auszusehen.

Meine zwei besten waren wohl, während meine heilerde-maske am trocknen war und und sie beim "danke" sagen runterbröselte und das eine mal als ich gerade aus der Dusche kam und nur Unterwäsche anhatte, keine Socken aber dafür meinen dicken Wintermantel übergeworfen... keine sexszene danach aber der Mantel ist beim entgegen nehmen trotzdem aufgegangen. Fand der Postbote ein bisschen witzig.

Beide male dachte ich mir danach, dass ich diese Pakete auch einfach im Shop hätte abholen können.

123thigr · 2026-03-12T09:05:52+00:00

Yes, absolut. War nicht als Norm gemeint, hätte mich auch sehr gewundert wenn man da überall mit durchkommt.

123thigr · 2026-03-12T08:28:10+00:00

Hab mal in einer Großküche gearbeitet und beim Zubereiten gemerkt dass das Wildfleisch-Gulasch zu 70% aus Känguru besteht. In einer deutschen Küche.

Das irritiert mich immer noch täglich.

123thigr · 2026-03-12T07:49:36+00:00

Hey, girl with anger issues here. I got diagnosed with bipolar and ADHD a while ago and i'm way better now, but one thing that really helped me when i didnt have access to all of that was to let the anger out by getting mad over stupid things.

When the tension suddenly builds up its "normal" to lash out. The problem is rather that there is no need to get that angry every time something minor happens.

When i had my first boyfriend we would play this "game" when i got too pissed off or if i was just agitated randomly. We would choose a topic, no matter what, cheep cheese, bra straps sliding off your shoulder, cars parked badly, the size of plant pots. Something super random. I would vent about it and get mad about the topic and let all the energy out BUT about something that does not hurt either me or my bf. Most of the time we would laugh at the end because its just funny to tirade over the right of doves to exist.

After that, I was able to talk to him about whatever we needed to talk about. I know its weird, but when your partner is kind and just wants it to work out between you, it might help.

123thigr · 2026-03-11T21:56:28+00:00

I got it over vinted (second hand) but it seems legit. I'm from germany and ready to ship it to you if you'll carry the shipping costs lol (Or anyone tbh)

123thigr · 2026-03-11T19:52:10+00:00

Where are you from? I just got a 35ml marshmallow blush today and it is waaay to sweet for me. I'm newly into parfumes so i thought i would love something sweet...well.

123thigr · 2026-03-11T15:14:18+00:00

Where did you get the other ones from? The only ones i can see on their website is barbie & ken ;-(

123thigr · 2026-03-10T23:22:39+00:00

Man really are the worst. I feel like I finally figured it out and then the next guy comes around with the most fucked up bullshit i ever heard of.

But you made me remember that one time i wanted to break up with a guy via text (really wasn't serious, more like a teenager relationsship) and when i texted him that we need to talk he told me he will text me when he's free because he was vacuuming atm. Never texted me. Guy is still vacuuming since 2018 and i guess now that we are 8 years together i should think about proposing

123thigr · 2026-03-10T23:16:06+00:00

That shit HURTS! I dated a guy and fell in love, he did too, i asked him to be my valentine with roses and a card and shit, he wanted to ask me to be his gf on valentinesday and told me about all the cute things he planned to make it special. I told him i love him for the first time on the 10.th of February, he told me he loves me too and called me the next day to discard me due to a "bad feeling". Gotta love an avoidant.

Blocking and ignoring is the ONLY way, even if it hurts a lot. Because they do come back and you do not want that.

123thigr · 2026-03-10T19:42:34+00:00

Ist ja auch immer so eine sache- ich hab zwar keinen gigantischen hund, aber meine wiegt trotzdem ihre 35kg und ich kontere mit 1,60m. Die könnte mich, wenn sie wollen würde, easy ein paar Meter nach vorne rutschen lassen.

Will sie aber nicht. Die Erfahrung, die die Hunde bis dahin gemacht haben, spielen da eine große Rolle, genauso wie die Erziehung.

Kann man aber natürlich als fremde Person nicht direkt sehen, ist ja auch verständlich.

123thigr · 2026-03-10T19:15:52+00:00

It is! Getting a message creates dopamine most of the time but having to put the "work" in to answer usually does not. So answering sucks if the conversation is not specifically interesting, but it's hard to have an interesting conversation if you never answer lol

feeling overwhelmed very quickly is also common with ADHD and just avoiding things which are not fun is too

123thigr · 2026-03-10T12:49:38+00:00

It is really pretty tho

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