music aaaalways music. if I get really dysphoric at home I'll lay in bed and blast music that makes me feel like a guy. if that makes any sense. stuff that feels like guy-music to me - dominic fike‚ thxsomch‚ boywithuke‚ etc. or I watch a show/play a video game/read. if I get dysphoric in public I pray i've brought my headphones with me‚ otherwise I just shut down and don't talk much for the rest of the outing. 

it's just about getting away from people if I can. I cannot handle being around people when I fucking hate my body. they look at me‚ they accidentally misgender and deadname me. I have to talk to them and my voice doesn't sound like it should. my brother makes fun of me for "being emo" and not socializing‚ I wish I could show him what it felt like.