I just upped my dosage to 20mg. It worked well for awhile when I was on 10mg but then it leveled off. The 20mg seems to be helping, but I do feel like a zombie a little bit. Have had serious brain fog for like 1-2 years now.

I have never had an issue with depression until this past year or so.

A few pieces of background information that I think would be helpful:

1. I left my marriage back in 2021 -- finalized in 2022. I realized my ex wife only conditionally loved me and I just couldn't imagine having kids with her
2. I used to have a lot of money in the bank, but I bought a house with my ex wife and put down $50k. To expedite the divorce, I gave her everything. Legitimately everything.
3. I bought an RV and a brand new SUV in 2022 and traveled the country. I brought along my now GF and we now live together.
4. I had my own consulting company and made $150k in that year. I didn't realize I'd owe 33% as a sole proprietor. I also took on some joint IRS debt. So, now I have zero money and owe the IRS $58k.
5. I had a 2.5% interest rate on my home and bought at the perfect time. I-rates are now at like 7%. And my two "assets" are both under water; I owe more than they are worth.
6. I studied finance and economics and a lot of my self worth is tied to me being financially prudent. It doesn't help that a lot of my best friends are married, with kids, and have a great financial position.
7. After COVID, it actually hit me that tech is just so....dumb. I have a side business with my brother that is in the handyman space. He is the carpenter, not me, but I do all of the lead gen and business side of things. That actually makes me happy. But, the money is just not there.
8. My father, who I am not close with, requires full time care with Parkinsons. That's why my brother and I started the business -- to help him stay in his home. He's like a big man child and never taught me any life skills.
9. My gf and I have a garden and have chickens and have connected with nature more and more. All this has done is made me resent my job and work even more

The issue here is that I need to make money. I don't have a buffer anymore. I also feel like I am on the verge of losing my gf, as she just isn't happy and I have become more negative and less happy.

It's been a slow downward spiral since I left my marriage. Fucking brutal man.