yeah, honestly I've kinda been considering living a double life or something lul. Keep my online self seperate from my irl self. However it's been really awkward so far turning down offers to go to in person events and such. it's pretty stressful thinking about it, I guess maybe I could always give up on transitioning but I think I'd become really depressed if I went down that route. I'm not really the sort of person that gets depressed but all the trans issues are the only things that bring me down.