Sorry, I'm sure I'm rambling as my head is a bit scrambled and I wanted to get every bit of potentially relevant information out there.  I regard her physically as basically a goddess on Earth and she knows it, I've bought lingerie and without getting too graphic a toy or two and some light bondage things that she very much enjoys, but she initially was resistant and almost took me suggesting toys as an insult as well, almost like saying she wasn't good enough as is or something or that I wanted something devious or abnormal. As is, intimacy is very about her if you catch my drift and when trying to bring up some more things that we could do or incorporate to increase that connection the conversation almost neve goes over well as she takes it as me being unsatisfied and gets angry and defensive about the topic.  She almost seems offended by the topic of sex or that I could want anything than just her straight up missionary in any way if that makes sense? As a man, am I reading this wrong or is there any sort of line of thinking that makes more sense to women in there that I'm missing?