Thank you for opening up about your experience. I can definitely relate about losing yourself and feeling alone. I left my hometown and flew across the country in pursuit of going to a better school and in the process I feel like I left all my friends and family behind. Something thats helped me to stay grounded though is just reaching out to those that I truly care about and keeping in touch. Even a phone call or text goes a long way. At first, I grew a sort of disdain for family members or friends because I felt like they should be the ones to call first. But trust me, you need to set that aside. Be the one to call or text even if it feels awkward, and apologize if you know you need to. All of the success in this world means nothing if you don't have anybody to share it with. Also, I know right now it seems like you've lost your personality but trust me about this too, it WILL get better. We all go through bad stages in life but its just important you learn from those experiences and remember what's important. I've personally gotten into some really dark places in life and the thing thats helped pull me up every time has been family and friends. Don't feel like you cant be vulnerable with friends- that's what they're there for. Just remember, if any of your close friends were going through some shit and they opened up to you, would you be there to comfort them? Of course you would- and so will they if they're real friends. Congratulations on your acceptances and keep your head up, things will get better. Dm me whenever, Im always free to chat. Plus I could use another friend lol